hurts after hurts *

Sunday, May 30, 2010

LADY GAGA!!! yeahs mans . she Rocks th World . :D Gorgeous ? Hot ? Speechless ? I'm just Hypnotized by Her . @.@

SCREAMED at Sunday, May 30, 2010

Quite some since i last updated . im down with this pair of FLU and COUGH from last night till now . wth . so mother fucking irritating luhs !! straight come both at a time . full time partner huh ?! haiyo ! Irritate my life . cant even slp properly luhs . asshole . laughs . Well , I'm attached lerhs ppl :D laughs . but i feel so like Single . Hahahas . it doesnt really matter lahs . LOL . 2 more days , if i still hear nothing from her , I will be officially Single again :DDD LOL . i noe abit lame lahs , but you guys wont understand derhs lahs . LOL . Last night , Jonas came tuh T1 and wait for me tuh knock off at 10 . so touching rights my HONEYYYYY ??? LOL . then went tuh Jonas house and overnight . laughs . we online , tok craps , abit of heart tuh heart here and there , all th way till 5plusAM then slp . and woke up at abt 11plus coming tuh 12. laughs . then went down tuh have out late breakfast tgt . left at abt 4 in th noon after bathing at her house . cabbed home and went out tuh work again at 6 . busy hor ? laughs . and now just reached home and finished bathing . :D tired lerhs mans . lol . toked tuh a PENGUIN on th phone just now and so fast she wan hang lerhs . Zzz . asshole luhs . Grrr . Currently , im so so so so in love with LADY GAGA . OMG ! She is so H.O.T cans?!?!?!?! really admire her tuh th core . ^^ She ROCKS th shit out of me ! LOL ! if only can have a gf like her , wahs , i will be th most luckiest man on earth mans . LOL . sorry , its BUNG . arghs ! LADY GAGA !!!!!!!!! whoohoos ! my IDEAL GIRL ! LOL . shall end here with a sweetest smile tuh my Lady Gaga =D take care everyone . i wanna go and dream about my Lady Gaga lerhs . Ciaos ~

SCREAMED at Sunday, May 30, 2010

Monday, May 24, 2010

wahs , im feeling so so so sick now . shit mans . having this mother fucking annoying headache . getting on my nerves mans ! eeeeeeee ! met up with Jonas , Zen and her future gf . laughs . so cute luhs them . laughs . tmr , going for counselling session at a family centre . ass . that SGH lahs , give me what attachment . lazy go siahs . but bobian , have tuh . Zzz . fucked , my hp kena confiscated by my tcher . asshole . cos i didnt finish selling th donation tickets . Grrr . so difficult tuh sell luhs . asshole . arghs ! i miss my phone lahs . my beloved phone . it has been with me for like abt a year lerhs lehs . have very deep feeling with that phone . laughs . OMG , im so tired lerhs . gtg . take care peeps .

You have been th cause tuh what i am now .
You have been th one who made me do so many crazy things .
You are th one who made me feel so disappointed .
You are th one who broke all your promises .
You are th one for all th denials .
When You needed me , you kip calling and expect me tuh tok tuh you , even when i told you im working . But when you know new frens , You can fucking just KICK ME ASIDE . Ignoring all my msgs , neglecting me , and even if you reply , your attitude that you gave me SUCK all th way tuh your ENORMOUS BREASTS ! Oh my , you made me feel that I've been stupidly used .
You can sound so shock when ppl ask you whether you are a lesbian .
You are th cause , th origin , for all th shits that happened these days .
Thank you , I must say , But i DONT NEED all these .
I wanna love you no more . Because everyone knows , you DONT worth my love .

SCREAMED at Monday, May 24, 2010

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Since th day i lost you ,
I didnt know what else i could do
Beside waiting and dreaming that you will return .
Even after i clearly know that its pointless and that you will never return ,
I'm still so stubbornly waiting .
It wasnt your fault that im hurt now
I can blame no one .
This is th cruel fact .
I'm just lying tuh myself and refusing tuh accpt th Fact
that you will never be back .
Tuh see you happy ,
Thats my greatest wish .
I can ask for no more .
So now im letting go .
Watching you walk away with your new Straight life .
I wont come in your way ,
I wont breathe a word .
I'm just shutting my eyes and forcing myself tuh leave .
Keeping all th pains in my heart .
I will let go of my hand ,
I will stop holding onto you .
Maybe I will need time ,
Tuh let this Love erase .
I'm at lost .
Ppl say "If you love someone , set her free ."
But they never say what tuh do ,
When She doesnt come back .
You are th key tuh bring genuine laughters into my life now .
Teach me how tuh laugh from th bottom of my heart without you , Baby .

She told me today , that she wanna turn straight . I really wanted tuh ask her tuh stay , but i know clearly that she wont . I can feel it , its breaking . but its still alive , suffering those pains . Now , i'm just waiting for it tuh be gone . I dont know how long it will take , all i can do now is tuh wait . I wanna move on , i really do . becos i cant live this way . its killing me deep inside .

Went for Sher's chalet just now aft work , and im dead beat . Arghs ! Just got back home only . and im blogging in lerhs .th chalet was quite okays lahs . at least i know almost everyone there. more SGH girls . laughs . but i was so pathetic , squeezing with Jervine , Ahwyn and Monkey on th same bed . wahs . cant evern get tuh slp a wink . shagggggsssss . but jervine kena disturb by me and Monkey . Laughs . cos she slp beside me and Monkey . and she is th only girl . LAUGHS . *evil* Monkey unhooked her bra . laughs ! kelian derhs Jervine kena molested . hahahahas . but i innocent ahs , i dint even touch her luhs . LOL . i so decent , where will anyhow anyhow touch touch ppl derhs . =X yeahs , im good boy . laughs . ate alottttttt at th chalet . hotdogs lahs , corn lahs . omg , im gaining weight lerhs lahs !!!! no no no , no more eating for today liaos . im gg crazy , eat so much . now i wan go weigh myself i also scared siahs . Grrr . cfm gain weight derhs luhs . arghs ! im gg crazzzzzyyyyyyyyyyy ! shall end here lerhs . havent even bath yet . gonna go and have a good bath and then head tuh my lalaland lerhs . my bed is waiting for me lerhs . laughs . take care peepos . buhbye . :D

SCREAMED at Sunday, May 23, 2010

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Recent pics . LAUGHS . im crazzzyyyyy . I know that . LOL .

SCREAMED at Saturday, May 22, 2010

finally MYE are over mans . phew , and coming up are th holidays !!!! whoohoo ! clubbing time ! laughs . well , my results kinda suck . LOL . exams period , was down with quite a number of blows and problems . i noe its stupid , peepos , dont scold me please :D PEACE .

Eng P2 - 52/80
Poa - 84.5/100
Combined science - 75/100
Combined Humans - Failed
Maths P1 - 32/80
Maths P2 - 45/60
Mother Tongue P1 - 38/70
Mother Tongue P2 - 32/60

S loves T so much . much more than how S used tuh love me . yeahs , cool huh ? sighs . many things happened , and ended up me and T had a lil quarrel that day at Katong Shopping Centre . T is my good brother , and we actually quarrelled becus of shits that arise from S . stupid ahs . was quite angry with T becus she lied tuh me and did smth that she shouldnt even do at all .

S is so crazyyyy over T .
S loves T so fucking damned much but T dont really love her .
S becus of T can do alot alot of thing .
S made use of me tuh get tuh noe more abt T , tuh hear T's voice , tuh get near T .
S is always thinking abt T .
S gave T her heart .
S is trying so hard tuh win T's trust and ended up hurting other pathetic and innocent souls unknowingly .
S cannot forget T .

I'm so crazyyyy over S .
I love S so fucking damned much but S dont even love me , or rather , has NEVER love me .
I did alot of things for S .
I'm always thinking of S , finding excuses tuh msg her , becos as long as i get tuh chat with S , im happy enuf .
I gave S my heart .
I cannot forget S .

Everything is opposite . Yeahs , and at th very end of th day , I'm still th Pathetic Victim . Thanks . S has left a scar in my heart . I dont wanna see S like this . She's in pain , and so am I . I hate this . I wanna stop loving her . STOPPPPP !!! ohs , im just day dreaming . laughs . perhaps , im letting go slowly now . but one cruel fact is that , im still living in th old memories of us . how silly of me . I know .

SCREAMED at Saturday, May 22, 2010

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Me and Jonas . LOL .

SCREAMED at Saturday, May 15, 2010

things happened ytd . and im just so speechless . got myself injured , both physically and emotionally . yahs , i noe im weak . dont judge me , this is my life , let me live it th way i want it tuh be . advices are welcome , but not judgement pls . i had enuf . went tuh sing K with them ytd , and some shits just happened aft that . shall not elaborate . im just so tired . and frustrated with everything .

Today ,

th conjecture that i have been having was proven right . finally . S fell for T . amazing huh ? LAUGHS . i was totally lost , and didnt noe what tuh do when i noe that . im speechless , directionless , blank , devastated , hopeless , idk what else i felt . as if i lost everything , including myself . i dont noe who am i , why im here in th world . why im doing all these , aft all that which happened . i noe im dumb , im stupid , everything started with me . i just feel like escaping . from everything in th world , including myself . i did nonsense . things that i dont usually do anymore . i dont noe why i did that , as i said , i lost myself . thanks tuh S . im sorry , i really dont noe what else i can do tuh make all those feelings stop . i may be foolish . i dont wish tuh tink , but i cant help it . i really cant . tear is already a regular customer tuh my face , and blood is also regular customer tuh my skin . im NUMB . by everything that hit me . i can no longer learn how tuh love . not at th moment . its enuf . i had enuf . i dont wish tuh be th reason tuh separate them . im fine , i noe they like each other , just go ahead . i dont mind . if my love for S is stopping S from being with th one she love , then just treat it as i dont love S anymore . it doesnt really matter anw . it makes no diff . becos i finally realise , that everything is over . one is my gd bro , th other one is th one I'm so crazily in love with . i would rather sacrify myself then . for you , i can do anything , but not stop th love , and erase th memories of my mind . take care my love . i dont wish tuh see you suffering in a one sided situation with T , like what im gg through now with you . i dont want tuh see you being hurt . hope my ego will be of help in this situation now . i just dont wish tuh show .

For S :

Ting dao wo de dian hua　

Xiang le yi sheng jiu zan ting　

Hui bu hui shi ni

Wo zong huai yi　

Yin wei zhe yuan yin　

Xin qing bu wen ding

Wo men zhi jian de wen ti　

Shi wo bu xiang xin ni　

Min gan you duo xin

Pa ni bian le xin　

Yin wei ai ni　

Hai pa shi qu ni

Ai de tian qi zong shi yin qing bu ding　

Ai de qing xu ye zai huan xiao zhong ku qi

Baby）xiang dui ni shuo sheng dui bu qi　

Yong cuo le fang shi qu ai ni

Yin wei wo tai zai yi

（ru guo mei you ni）

wo de shi jie zhi sheng hui yi

Mei tian zhi mian dui gu ji　

Yi lai bu ji　

Zai shuo wo ai ni

Zi cong na tian fen shou hou　

Ting bu zhu lei di　

Xiang nian yi ge ren

Neng wang ji zi ji　

Rang wo ai ni　

Shen me dou yuan yi

Ru guo neng zai yu jian ni　

Ba ni bao jin　

Cong ci bu fen li

Jue bu fang qi　

Wo yao gao su ni　

OS:Baby I'm sorry

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

zhi sheng xia gang qin pei wo tan le yi tian
shui zhao de da ti qin
an jing de jiu jiu de
wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
wo dong wo ye zhi dao
ni mei you she bu de Oh~~

ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
qian zhe ni pei zhe wo ye zhi shi ceng jin
xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai
ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
wei shen me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo ?
wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
bu yong dan xin de tai duo
wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo

ni yi jing yuan yuan li kai
wo ye hui man man zou kai
wei shen me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni ?
wo zhen de mei you tian fen
an jing de mei zhe me kuai
wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
shi yin wei wo tai ai ni ..

nà yī shàn chē mén
guān chū wŏ men de liè hén
yī shēng jiù zhèn duàn le huí tóu de lù chéng

ài wú fă jūn fēn
yĭ hòu jiù liú gĕi nĭ men
yĕ xŭ yòng shāng hài jié shù ài cái gèng dòng rén

* róng rĕn de rén qí shí bìng bù bèn
zhī shì zhù kĕ duì zì jĭ cán rĕn
jì rán ài bù néng héng wēn
zhù fú jiù gĕi nĭ xià yī gè rén

** nĭ shì hăo rén yĕ shì gè huài rén
duì wŏ tăn chéng zhī wéi le cháo tā kuáng bēn
bù néng fàng rèn suŏ yĭ fàng le
zhè diăn tòng wŏ huán néng rĕn
wŏ shì hăo rén yĕ shì gè huài rén
fēn de gòu hĕn nĭ cái yŏu jiè kŏu zhuăn shēn
zhù yuàn ài yī diăn bù shèng
yĕ bù rĕn kàn liàn rén ài chéng lù rén

I'm tired , i guess i need a break . I miss you .

SCREAMED at Saturday, May 15, 2010

Thursday, May 13, 2010

these few days have been gg out with Jonas and Her . well , realised smth that hit me real hard . im so BLINDED , that i couldnt even see that everything is OVER . yeahs , EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT , im DUMB , im STUPID , im SELFISH , and EVERYTHING you can tink of me alrights ?! you did nothing wrong , I DESERVED tuh be hurt , i deserve everything that i get now . thanks . i noe that . you wished i dint exist at all . i shall not exist in your life anymore then . why th fuck all these are happening tuh me . false hope , hot and cold , honging , and all those shits . ppl are asking me tuh give up already , even those that have been encouraging me tuh pursue is asking me tuh give up also . maybe i need time , tuh get all this over . tuh start a new life on my own again , get fucking get you out of my heart . GIVE IT A TRY ?! you dare tuh say that ?!! i think might as well GIVE IT A FUCK instead ! fuck everything alrights ?! you did nothing that you said you will and promised me tuh . all your words in your letter are just STMF alrights ?! yes , i noe that i may have done you wrong IN TH VERY VERY FIRST PLACE . but i have been trying very hard tuh mend it all back since we got back tgt again . everything was gg on well from 250110 onwards till 190210 when you shouted STOP tuh everything . nevertheless i still carried on , trying my fucking best tuh fucking win your love over . all my hard work , all my effort , everything that i did for you , got me nowhere but into th deep deep HELL . how can you be so cruel tuh someone who love you so much , someone who has given so much tuh you , someone who has changed so much for you ? is your heart made of metal ? that nothing i did has touched it ? have you forgotten th way we loved each other , th way we touched , th way we kissed , th way we are in th past . is it so easy for you tuh forget ? why just when i really want tuh be serious and settle down with you , you would change and become someone i didnt noe when we were in SGH . why is your change so drastic ? you have become someone who i dont noe , not th DAR you were in th past . my LOVE has got nowhere , and so has myself .

We were both young when i first saw you
I close my eyes and th flashbacks starts i'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air
See th lights see th party th ball gown
See you make your way through th crowd
And say Hello little did i know
that you were Romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my Daddy said stay away from Juliet
I was crying on th staircase begging you please dont go
and i said 'Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be wating all there's left tuh do is run
You'll be th prince and i'll be th princess
It's a love story baby , just say Yes ..

"Halos. replying your letter... 27Jan10.. i never go sch .. so sians. th first thing i do when i wake up was tuh go around telling my dormates that i want tuh go sch .. than i cry otw tuh slp . i dont know why as each day passed be my feelings become stronger and stronger.. its damn hard for me tuh let you go noe .. i dont know why ! im alwys thinking what you are doing outside . i really cant bear tuh leave you at this moment.. i miss you so damn much. do you know how important you are in my heart ? do you know where you stand in my heart? sorry if i didnt turn up for your burfday. im on MC. that stupid doctor larh.. dont let me go school.. i cry like as if my beloved ones die like that Lorhs.. i dont wish history tuh repeat itself.cause it will lead me tuh depression.. every single day im looking forward tuh meet you tau ! finally we are back tgt again and i love that feeling of you holding me in your fat arms *laughs* i hope tuh last till i discharged.hope you fulfill this wish of mine.. :)are you willing tuh go through with me anot ? wo hen xiang ni.. do you ? will you always be th boyy that i love and sayang for ? can you see that my lkove for you is strong and deep ? i promise you if my feeling for you isnt strong anymore i will let you know.. but i guess that will be a million months /days / years later. if you dont believe you should ask Valerina how much i love and care for you.. how deeply im in love with you.. m,aybe you would be my last girlfriend.. Oops its boyfriend..losing you is a nightmare and i cant bear tuh dream of it.. *crying out loud* one day dint see you like hundred years never see you.. i love you more than you do.. if we can last till Valentine i will give you th book i do for you i promise. i want you forever by my side. never tuh leave me neglected okays. =D i wont de. im very scared tuh lose you.. can you promise me that even if we break liaos we sill can be friends and that you will still be there tuh celebrate my burfday ? will place your photo in th diary of mine and kip it safe and sound be my side. having you around make me feel so secure and sound.."

tuh be continued... running out of time now so gotta PAUSE here first..

*** have you really forgotten what you have told me and your promises in your letters ???

SCREAMED at Thursday, May 13, 2010

Sunday, May 9, 2010

SCREAMED at Sunday, May 09, 2010

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Last Tues , She said ,
"as i've said PAST IS PAST THERES NO WAY U CAN TURN BACK THE TIME LERHSS.."

perhaps there is really no more chance tuh go back tuh how we were used tuh be . but pls dont say thigns tuh hurt my heart anymore Dar . I cant take it . becos you meant too much tuh me lerhs . every single minute , i've been waiting anbd yearning for your msgs . even a "eat lerhs mahs ? " derhs msg you sent me that day also can make me FLY . becos even a simple msg can show that she still got think of me . :D :D :D HAPPY ^^ its not pig can fly , its pig's heart always die . As I've said , you can do whatever you want , as long as you dont hurt yourself . i wont stand in your way . i'd just follow you whever you go , stand in one corner and watch you closely , just tuh ensure that you are safe and happy . although its torturing me tuh noe that you're gg on with this guy that bung , i cant deny that it hurts , but i dont mind being hurt just becos i love you . and i cant forget . so its okays with me if you wanna find someone new , flirt with anyone , whatever u want . i wont breathe a word . i'd watch you silently , kiping all those hurts in my heart tuh myself , be there tuh catch u wheneve you fall , be there tuh wipe away your tears on your face when you cry , give you my shoulder tuh lie on when you are feeling weak , and offer you any help i can give . i just wanna walk with you for th rest of my life Girl . i will never leave , i promise you Girl , I'll always stay by you . and i will be waiting for you tuh be back and continue Our Love Story .

* th process of loving you is like a path that has no turning backs once i have started walking on it .

SCREAMED at Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

it has been so long that i updated my pathetic bloggy . SORRY ~ sighs . many things happened . i guess i shall post abt th NON-SAD things first bahs . okays , hmms , have been gg tuh gym and there is one particular time when i went tuh gym and i saw this average looking malay girl , whose muscles are like so huge can ! wahs , i see her so muscular i zi bei siahs . her muscles are actually bigger than mine i guess ! OMFG . damned zi bei mans . Grrr . nvm , i will train harder derhs . humph . today was my FIRST PAPER . ENGLISH PAPER . hmms , was damned nervous that i got messed up with all th foolscap papers and stuffs on my bloody table . Zzz . too nervous lerhs , cos i didnt really revise much . and i cant deny that im more or less distracted by some prob of mine . which happened just ytd . sighs . hmms , but thank goodness , i managed tuh complete my paper smoothly :D hope will have gd grades . ^^ hmms , currently im down with one lunatic diet plan . which is anti food ! LOL . hmms , since th day i met up with HER at Jurong Point , which on Sunday , i had nasi lemak for my breakfast , and thats all for that day . then Monday i had 2 half-boiled eggs for breakfast , thats all for that day . Today slightly better , i ate some vege and boiled chicken during my recess and thats it . :D kinda break my own record lerhs siahs . idk why i would come up with this also . LOL . hmms .

that day met up with HER , Joii , with Jonas at Jp . and they met us for awhile only then went off lerhs . we came all th way tuh Jp tuh meet them and they so fast jiu go lerhs . cant deny , was kinda disappointed . sighs . so aft that me and Jonas went tuh meet Zen , then tgt went tuh meet Aubrey and her gf . waited for them for damned long cans ! Zzz -.- i gave HER a test , with th help of Jonas . sadly tuh say , she failed my test . shall not elaborate much on th test . sighs . and th test went on till ytd , i called Her up and exposed everyting . then She msg me and asked me tuh forget abt Her and Our memories . and She asked me & Jonas tuh stop contacting her . She was very upset that i dint trust her that i have tuh test her . she said we were through . noe how hurting those words are ?! what made me puzzled was why She told Jonas that she dont love me anymore but later when i asked her if she still love me , she said Yes . sighs . forget it , its over . i noe i cant forget Her just like that becos i Love Her . but idk whether does she still feel th same , although from certain incidents i can feel it , neverthless , i dont wan tuh be overconfident . i would rather she tell me TRUTHFULLY at my face . i had my reasons for doing that . although its still not right tuh do that . perhaps as what ppl have said , i let th phobia and distrust i have towards rs from th past experiences affect th present one i had . yeahs , i noe i also got wrong . sighs . perhaps im really too sensitve lerhs bahs . and too zai hu her lerhs . but i really dint have th intentions tuh hurt her in any ways . i swear ! i was badly hurt too ! *cries* i really dont wish tuh let go . cos i noe i cant . and i love Her . i cant deny this .

"Dar , i noe you slp already . i just finished bathing . and gg tuh zz soon . i just wanna tell you that out of a sudden , i miss you . miss th way you loved me , th times we've shared , th way you laughed , th way we hugged and kissed , th way you called me Dar , th way i fetch you back and fro sgh , th way you held my hands and walk tuh your sch from commonwealth mrt , th silly you when you pg , basically your everything . just you , yes i want you . your love , th love we used tuh share . i want it all back . even though i may sound greedy , but its th fact . becos of you , i've learnt , learnt tuh be appreciative of those time we had . be is sad or happy times . i wont let go of you so easily anymore .comes whatever , rmb , im still here for you tuh rant your anger , tuh wipe away your tears when you are down , tuh laugh with you when you are over th moon . Even if th whole world turn their backs against you , you noe you still have me by your side . i cant give up just like that , and i wont too . at first i must say , i didnt noe that i love you that deep , i tot it was just a love that i could easily forget . but only when i felt th hurt ytd , and genuinely feel how bad i was hurt , then i began tuh , how much i actually love you . i may not be good at showing you my love , or at giving you th assurance that i wont hurt you , but from now onwards , im gg tuh try my very best tuh give you my best , tuh make you happy .tuh be more understanding . i noe you need some time tuh cool down . i will give you time . i'll give you all th freedom tuh do anything you want , as long as you dont hurt yourself . i hope that you'd make me be th one tuh let you confide your xin shi in . i wanna be th one tuh go through all th thicks and thins in th future in th future tuh come . i wanna be th one . not anyone else . whatever i do , is all becos of one simple reason , which is I LOVE YOU . i swear its true . if my love for you aint true , i lose my parents okays . from today onwards , you'll be my only one . i need you my girl . and i love you more . more than you noe . slp tight alright .i gg slp also . gd night . tmr morning then msg you k ? kisses , from th bottom of my heart !

from all my heart ,
your dar EmersonChong"

last night's msg tuh Her . how i wish we will be like how we used tuh be . so loving and sweet . why is it that aft you discharge , then you become another DAR who i dont noe? yes , i will accpt NOW derhs you , if i really love you , but i need time and chance tuh understand NOW derhs you also rights ? I hope that we could return back tuh those times when i send you back tuh SGH , when we smoke at staircase tgt , when i fetch you tuh and fro SGH , when i sent you tuh sch , when we kissed and hugged ( th feeling was so right and strong ) , th way you touch . i miss all those times , th love we used tuh share . but all that have been replaced with th cold and cruel you . i dont mind now , even if we can return tuh th times when i waited outside SGH for you like a fool when ended up you wasnt even out , i dont mind how sot i was . i just wan th past that belong tuh us back . DAR , pls dont do this tuh me . its hurting . and th only way tuh stop th hurts is tuh return back tuh how we used tuh be . PLEASE . it wasnt until i felt how tremendously my heart broke , that i realise how much i actually love you . DAR , im sorry , i noe i may have hurt you in some ways at times , but i've never realise . im sorry for being so ignorant of my own actions and yet so sensitive of every of your actions . but please rmb , I LOVE YOU , i really do . T.T

SCREAMED at Tuesday, May 04, 2010