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Thursday, May 13, 2010
these few days have been gg out with Jonas and Her . well , realised smth that hit me real hard . im so BLINDED , that i couldnt even see that everything is OVER . yeahs , EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT , im DUMB , im STUPID , im SELFISH , and EVERYTHING you can tink of me alrights ?! you did nothing wrong , I DESERVED tuh be hurt , i deserve everything that i get now . thanks . i noe that . you wished i dint exist at all . i shall not exist in your life anymore then . why th fuck all these are happening tuh me . false hope , hot and cold , honging , and all those shits . ppl are asking me tuh give up already , even those that have been encouraging me tuh pursue is asking me tuh give up also . maybe i need time , tuh get all this over . tuh start a new life on my own again , get fucking get you out of my heart . GIVE IT A TRY ?! you dare tuh say that ?!! i think might as well GIVE IT A FUCK instead ! fuck everything alrights ?! you did nothing that you said you will and promised me tuh . all your words in your letter are just STMF alrights ?! yes , i noe that i may have done you wrong IN TH VERY VERY FIRST PLACE . but i have been trying very hard tuh mend it all back since we got back tgt again . everything was gg on well from 250110 onwards till 190210 when you shouted STOP tuh everything . nevertheless i still carried on , trying my fucking best tuh fucking win your love over . all my hard work , all my effort , everything that i did for you , got me nowhere but into th deep deep HELL . how can you be so cruel tuh someone who love you so much , someone who has given so much tuh you , someone who has changed so much for you ? is your heart made of metal ? that nothing i did has touched it ? have you forgotten th way we loved each other , th way we touched , th way we kissed , th way we are in th past . is it so easy for you tuh forget ? why just when i really want tuh be serious and settle down with you , you would change and become someone i didnt noe when we were in SGH . why is your change so drastic ? you have become someone who i dont noe , not th DAR you were in th past . my LOVE has got nowhere , and so has myself .

We were both young when i first saw you
I close my eyes and th flashbacks starts i'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air
See th lights see th party th ball gown
See you make your way through th crowd
And say Hello little did i know
that you were Romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my Daddy said stay away from Juliet
I was crying on th staircase begging you please dont go
and i said 'Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be wating all there's left tuh do is run
You'll be th prince and i'll be th princess
It's a love story baby , just say Yes ..

"Halos. replying your letter... 27Jan10.. i never go sch .. so sians. th first thing i do when i wake up was tuh go around telling my dormates that i want tuh go sch .. than i cry otw tuh slp . i dont know why as each day passed be my feelings become stronger and stronger.. its damn hard for me tuh let you go noe .. i dont know why ! im alwys thinking what you are doing outside . i really cant bear tuh leave you at this moment.. i miss you so damn much. do you know how important you are in my heart ? do you know where you stand in my heart? sorry if i didnt turn up for your burfday. im on MC. that stupid doctor larh.. dont let me go school.. i cry like as if my beloved ones die like that Lorhs.. i dont wish history tuh repeat itself.cause it will lead me tuh depression.. every single day im looking forward tuh meet you tau ! finally we are back tgt again and i love that feeling of you holding me in your fat arms *laughs* i hope tuh last till i discharged.hope you fulfill this wish of mine.. :)are you willing tuh go through with me anot ? wo hen xiang ni.. do you ? will you always be th boyy that i love and sayang for ? can you see that my lkove for you is strong and deep ? i promise you if my feeling for you isnt strong anymore i will let you know.. but i guess that will be a million months /days / years later. if you dont believe you should ask Valerina how much i love and care for you.. how deeply im in love with you.. m,aybe you would be my last girlfriend.. Oops its boyfriend..losing you is a nightmare and i cant bear tuh dream of it.. *crying out loud* one day dint see you like hundred years never see you.. i love you more than you do.. if we can last till Valentine i will give you th book i do for you i promise. i want you forever by my side. never tuh leave me neglected okays. =D i wont de. im very scared tuh lose you.. can you promise me that even if we break liaos we sill can be friends and that you will still be there tuh celebrate my burfday ? will place your photo in th diary of mine and kip it safe and sound be my side. having you around make me feel so secure and sound.."

tuh be continued... running out of time now so gotta PAUSE here first..

*** have you really forgotten what you have told me and your promises in your letters ???
SCREAMED at Thursday, May 13, 2010