hurts after hurts *

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Today ,
woke up at 11.15 when im working at 12. had a BIG quarrel with my mom again. early morning nag at me lerhs. i woke up late so i dont have th time tuh go and buy breakfast for her and she can becos of this then KP me so much. she is just too demanding mans. OMG. wth. was late for work again , as usual. hahahas. then worked till 6PM , jiu went tuh eat. damned hungry. work until dint even have th time tuh eat. KESIAN hor? hahahas. then saw Chris and her frens at outside my workplace , so slacked with them for awhile at th taxi stand then Chris tell me that Joanna coming tuh meet us. then pei them go walk walk at TM and all luhs. Pei them tuh TM Hagen Daaz eat. but i dint eat lahs. Hahahas. then walk over tuh mrt tuh meet Joanna. then pei her go eat at east link. aft that went tuh fag and slack with them at th inter there. then bused back tuh Bedok lerhs. now im at my house nearby derhs lanshop updating my bloggg. hahahas. Chris fren jio me go club tmr. but i dont tink im gg cos i wanna wait for my pay tuh come first. yeahs yeahs :D get along with her frens lahs. easy going and had alot of fun toking cock with them , making them laugh their ass off. hahahahas. funny lahs. hahahahas. tmr im working FULL SHIFT. OMG. sighs. but tmr hari raya , hope there will be double pay bahs. :D okays lahs , i gtg lerhs. tmr gotta work , so must slp early. take care everyone.

To "a" :
I'm sorry that I dont tell ppl who i dont noe abt me and Shalini. If you are really interested , kindly leave down your BIG name and i will get back tuh you. However , if you don't , kindly mind your own business and don't bother abt my blog. Thank you.

SCREAMED at Thursday, November 26, 2009

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Last Monday ,
met Teresa & Anna at CGH , then we 3 went tuh visit Yan at th hosp. she kena admitted. then after that i went tuh work liaos. Teresa actually dont want me tuh go work derhs , kip psychoing me not tuh go work. LOLOLOL. but no choice , i cant paidao already. so went tuh work but late. worked till10plus then went tuh meet Anna and sent her home :D after that went tuh eat at coffeeshop. then went tuh find Shalini at her house cos she is my neighbour who stay at th same blk as me. chatted with her & tok cock with her , & reached home at abt 3plus AM. she called me & again we toked on th phone. i can hear frm her voice that she is very tired lerhs ,& i asked her tuh slp but she dont wan , she say she wan tuh tok tuh me & hear my voice. LOLOL. step touching only. then i finally made her go slp lerhs , then went tuh bath and slp too :D

Last Tuesday,
woke up at 10 plusAM then went down tuh buy breakfast for my mom & myself . aft eating then went tuh bath then went tuh find Shalini at her house. sat at her house while waiting for her tuh finish bathing and preparing. Omg , girls are always girls ! take hours tuh doll up themselves! =.= then bring her with me tuh meet Anna at 7-11. after that we tgt go CGH tuh visit Yan but me and Shalini dint visit her becos of some reasons. so after that , i teman Shalini go back Bedok HQ tuh take her urine test.saw her fren & so her fren followed us. then went tuh her fren house tuh watch video then me and her train down tuh Bugis tuh meet Jonas and co. went tuh eat at th food court then went tuh play arcade cum walk walk. after taht , abt 8plus PM, me and Shalini trained back tuh her house. slacked and toked tuh her mom. :D then went tuh staircase there and toktok tuh her & whatever with her. but dont anyhow think , i never A-Z with her lahs , not even Y yet. LOLOLOL. slacked with her at th staircase there till 12plus midnight , then she teman me go down bus food for my mom. after that i went home tuh bath lerhs jiu slp lerhs. i must say that i love tuh FEEL her , and she is a gd KISSER. LOL !

Last Wednesday,
was down with flu , & woke up as late as 12:15 PM cos i took th flu medicine, supposed tuh work at 12 noon , but overslept. then rushed tuh bath & work. reached workplace at abt 1PM and worked till 6PM. after that went tuh eat with my colleague Zana , then went home tuh bath lerhs. after bathing , went tuh Shalini's house. She was SICK too , & so i took care of her. aft that i brought her for a walk at a park nearby. we were holding hands and walking in th park. & i could feel th sweetness and ROMANCE. th way that she touched me , hugged me , kissed me , she gave me a very strong and RIGHT feeling. th feeling is so right, and i enjoyed that feeling. it was quite a long walk, then we sit down & tok at a bench.and we whatever again lahs. after that went tuh her house and we A-X. LOL. her sister was lying down at th matteress beside us then. hahahahs. after that she teman me go down eat. then i sent her home and went home after that.

Last Thurs,
woke up by my mom at 10 plus. then went tuh buy Barley for Shalini. she was sick. then slack with her for awhile then went tuh work liaos. worked full swing & im sick. sighs. then went tuh Shalini's house & A-Y. right infront of her sister somemore at th living rm.her sister was watching TV but we pandai pandai lahs , so th sister never witness th whole process but i think she suspected it lerhs lahs. i was sitting down and she was lying down. what a position ! first time in that position luhs. LOL. after that again she teman me go down eat then i sent her home lerhs. went home and bath and slp :D

Last Friday,
went tuh work at 12-6, then went tuh eat , after that went tuh find Shalini at her house but she was not at home. then went tuh look for her and found her at blk 101. then big thing happened btwn me and her. was kinda sad thing lahs & i actually cried infront of her. sighs. we had little bit of a Heart To Heart . then everything went back tuh normal & i went th her house & we again , 3 rounds this time. hahahahahahs. quite enjoyable lahs. she is a gd player on bed mans. i love it , th way she moves and everything. after that , went tuh eat and i home swt home.

Last Sat ,
worked from 12 - 10. after work went tuh find Shalini at her house again. my Ex , Nordiana , who is also her buddy, & another girl was at her house too. then slacked awhile then go home liaos.

Last Sunday,
woke up at 8 and went tuh find Romance KQ at Woodlands with Jonas. went up tuh her hse doorstep and toked tuh her secretly. she helped Wyn tuh hiong out th letter for Jonas and she herself also wrote one tuh me. found out alot of things , and was kinda touched by her letter lahs. miss her mans. Dx then we left her house at abt plus tuh meet Sher at Causeway Point. then tgt bused down tuh SGH cos Wyn asked ppl tuh pass msg tuh Jonas tuh wait outside SGH at 630. then we waited outside luhs. saw alot of HL / outing girls returning back. hahahahas. miss th life inside mans. waited for Romance KQ tuh go back also. Her dad sent her back thats why i cant tok tuh her , only can look and wave at her. sad hor? DDxJonas helped me tuh shout tuh my Romance , and Sher tuh shout tuh her Ray. hahahas. and of cos she also shouted for her Beloved and Fondly Missed derhs Xiao WynWyn lahs. hahahas. saw Romance at th staircase and look down at me so i waved at her. then she shouted tuh me that she miss me. was very happy :D hahahhas. i miss her too luhs. she go up band 2 liaos. so th next 2nd week she can come out for HL again liaos. ^^ miss her mans, cant wait for her tuh be out. so aft shouting , me , Sher and Jonas ran tuh th bus stop. Sher is th most humji one down there , scared kena caught, hahahas. Ray also got shout for her too & i guerss Sher must be very happy too bahs. hahahas. then we took bus tuh Panjang tuh visit Xiaoer at her house. Her leg was seriously injured.
To Xiaoer : Take care alrights? get well soon :D
then after that Sher and Jonas pei me go eat. adter that me and Jonas bused home lerhs. spent th whole day at outside , tired mans !!!

Monday ,
met Jonas at Tamp inter at 2 plus PM. then folled by meeting Baby. than Jonas' fren Yupei came too. after that we 4 ppl went tuh eat cakes at my workplace , Tamp 1 Secret Recipe :D i ate th moist chocolate cake. nice mans ! love melted chocolates ! then Aubrey came tuh find us too. aft that we went tuh walk walk and all. then awhile later Baby need tuh go lerhs. then we carry on with our window shopping. Sher dint come tuh meet us. Wth ! then after that went tuh find Anna and pei her tuh break. treated her eat lunch. then went tuh work at 6 till 10. then sent Anna home lerhs , i went home and bath and slp lerhs.

Tuesday,
OFF from work , and went tuh meet up with Anna at 7-11 at 1PM. then tgt with her , bused down tuh Katong tuh meet up with Jonas , Sher and Deping. then went tuh Sing K at Katong Shopping Centre. quite cheap lahs , each person need tuh pay $6 for th drink & th room. then aft that we pei Sher go down Bugis tuh buy her thing , then bused tuh Bukit Merah. went there tuh eat Mac :D then slack slack till 10plus PM me and Jonas jiu bused home lerhs. reached home at abt 11plus. toked tuh Cindy on th phone for awhile jiu go slp lerhs. so long never tok tuh her liaos. LOL. but this time is diff lerhs :D

Today ,
went tuh work at 12-6. then aft work went tuh eat and here i am lerhs , using com in th lan shop. tot of meeting my Baby just now , but she was at Bugis and i lazy tuh go find her lahs. so here i am luhs. lots of things happened and i have not been having th time tuh update my blog , so today since i end work early , i decided tuh one shot update luhs. hahahas. tmr im working again at 12. Zzz. i miss her now. sighs. but now , idk who i love truly , and who love me truly. im just very LOST and everything is just very COMPLICATED. very hard tuh trust any girls anymore. but maybe this time round , im going tuh pursue for my Romance bahs. yahs. waiting for her tuh be out again. miss her so much. cute lahs she :D okays lahs , i wanna blog off lerhs. going home soon. take care everyone :D

Once again we toked tuh each other on th phone , but this time round th feeling is diff , from th past. you told me abt you and Him , but th feeling of Jealousy wasnt that strong lerhs , at least not as strong as th past. ytd i went tuh sing K , and sang alot of emo songs. Wo bu pei , An jing , shuo hao derhs xing fu ne , hurt so bad , Dao dai , wo hui hao hao guo , etc etc. i must say that i did have those flashbacks , but at least this time round , I DIDN'T CRY. I'm so proud of myself that I could be this strong :D However , i havent meet you for so long , i still miss you so.

SCREAMED at Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Monday, November 16, 2009

Today ,
woke up at 11 plus becos my mom was toking on th phone in th room. wth =.= then ate th Laksa that my mom bought for me. after that , went tuh deposit money for my mom lerhs jiu went tuh Bedok Reservoir for a hair cut at Snip Avenue. then went back home lerhs. sianns. now raining. just now Shasha called me and asked me if i can go work later at 6 not. then i told her okays lerhs. so later i wil be gg tuh work :D cakes again... nvm , train myself at cake station also gd lahs :D later gonna go and meet Teresa at CGH ( Changi General Hospital ) , she is alone there now. but noe raining too heavily lerhs , so cant go out yet. Zzz. Baby tonight maybe going tuh Malaysia tuh work siahs. Shags. then leave me alone down here lahs. good lehs she. but she told me that her boss will cfm with her whether she gg tuh Malaysia or not later at night. now , i must say that i'm fond of my Baby lerhs. starting tuh LIKE her liaos. even though she is E******* , but at least she treat me quite not bad. but one thing is that i WONT put much hope on her derhs , cos tuh me , she is still VERY HONG. so tuh play on th safe side , i have found a few other girls as my back up plans lerhs. hahahahahas. aiyahs , now derhs me , no love wont die , cos i have already lost my TRUE love lerhs , so whats th point having another time of hurt? now , im just gonna go ahead with my Baby. but im starting tuh feel that my Baby's msg are getting lesser and lesser lerhs , and more and more unloving & unsweet liaos. last time even before me and Baby were tgt , her msgs were like so sweet derhs lahs. but now, so much DIFFERENT lerhs lahs. wth. therefore i wont put anymore hopes lerhs. i wont let anyone, not even her , tuh get into my heart & hurt me anymore. till here, gotta go liaos. take care peeps.

Because of you I never stray too far from th side walk
Because of you I learnt tuh play onth safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard tuh trust LOVE anymore
Because of you I don't noe how tuh let anyone else into my heart
Because of you I'm afraid , I'm having Phobia...

SCREAMED at Monday, November 16, 2009

Just now ,
ended work at abt 1045PM. very late rights? cos i today alone do cake closing mahs. first time i alone do lehs. dots. then kena delay becos of one stupid large order. knn , 3ooo+ cakes lehs ! think we robot uhs? Zzz. after that , went tuh buy ice cream eat with Imran, my colleague. today is Teresa's last day at work , she flying tuh China for attachment on this coming Sunday. sad siahs. cant bear tuh see her go D: hope everything will be fine for her over at China bahs. Bon Voyage !!!
Teresa , thanks for everything that we have gone through. It's sad tuh noe that you are going , and you are no longer coming tuh work at SR for th next 2 months , we gonna miss you! Dont wry , i sure will take care of Anna derhs. You better take care of yourself in China yeahs? All th best in everything you do , & take great care yeahs? Bon Voyage !!! We'll all be waiting for you tuh come back safely :D MISSES xD
went home at 11plus. then went tuh bath and here i am , blogging lerhs. gonna go slp lerhs. take care everyone :D

I have still been missing you my love. even though you have gone for good , those memories will always remain in my heart. i'll still be kiping every pic that we took tgt. i will , really. we seemed tuh be happy and loving in those pics , but just too bad , nth last. I always noe that looking back at Tears will make me Laugh , but i never knew that looking back at Our Laughters will make me wanna Cry. Having Flashbacks are nothing but a unkickable habit in my life rights now. I still miss you so Girl.

SCREAMED at Monday, November 16, 2009

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Sat,
woke up at 12plus. then eat lerhs jiu go bath & trained down tuh Far East tuh meet Jonas & co abt 3plus. pei her frens go shopshop then went tuh find Maine at Pastamania. we give her face , so went there tuh eat. she gave us discount. hahahas.
Thanks wor :D
ate beef bolognese. nt bad lahs. Lol. then aft eating wo jiu rush down tuh work lerhs. Was late for work! OMG! Zzz. then work till 10PM. jiu pei Teresa & Anna go mac buy thing eat liaos. shared fries with Anna. & then Teresa went tuh buy Vodka tuh drink. She was drunk lahs, walaos. Anna also got drink , but she's a good drinker. LOL. but she not feeling well too. so i alone there never drink derhs , th most sober one. i & Anna helped tuh send Teresa home , then i send Anna home lerhs luhs. cos Anna stay very near me only. LOL. reached home at abt 1AM. went tuh bath then slp liaos.

Today ,
woke up at 12 plus becos of somebody's call. th caller was someone from SGH. i forgot her name lerhs , cos when she called , i was still half aslp. then she tell me KQ's msg. after that , i cannot slp back liaos. Zzz. tired mans. then after that , went tuh eat lunch lerhs , jiu pei my mom watch movie , and help my mom with th house chores. washed toilet bowl , wash dishes. heh heh. see i so gd rights? LOL. after that bath lerhs and went tuh lan shop. so now im in lan shop. gonna go work soon liaos. tmr think would be meeting Baby for movie. probably watching movie in town bahs. tmr i OFF :DD so im very free derhs. LOL. but Baby's working till 7plus. sianns. Zzz. okays lahs. shall blog off now lerhs. take care everyone. BYES :D

I'm still in th process of letting go , however , i still miss you. each time I watch back tuh th video i took of you when you were playing th swing at CCK there , my heart aches. At least now , you are happier. thats all that matters lerhs. Take care my love...

SCREAMED at Sunday, November 15, 2009

Friday, November 13, 2009

Wed ,
went tuh work at 12 noon. all th way tuh 10PM. wahs , 10hours straight lehs. can go crazy siahs. was so dead beat lerhs by th time i went home. But Baby came tuh my workplace outside tuh see me work. so swt of her rights? LOL. Heh heh. den drawn smth for her while i was working. gonna pass it tuh her th next time i meet her bahs. aft work i msg her and ask her where is she , then she tell me that she watching movie with Kevin & frens at pasir ris. was quite pissed off by her lahs. & had a little tiff with her , AGAIN ! wth ! everyday also must quarrel one lehs us. tired luhs. then lepak with colleagues after work , & they could tell that i was very moody. they kept asking me what happened & so told them th full story. they gave me lots of advices.
Thanks guys. you noe who you all are. Thanks for being there tuh listen and care. much appreciated ! :DD
then Me , Yan , Teresa , & Anna walked over tuhmac and grab a bite. aft that , tgt walk tuh th bustop tuh take bus. i acc Anna take bus home , cos we stay very near each other. then went home tuh bath and slp.

Thurs,
woke up at 12 noon, then bought breakfast for my family and myself.aft aeting , went tuh bath and left house at 3PM. went tuh find Baby at her house. reached Baby's hse at abt 4PM, then slacked and *whatever* with Baby till 5plus. omg , my stamina is running out ! 1 hour only then feel tired lerhs. hahahahahahshashahs ! went tuh work after that. reached workplace at 6PM. luckily wasnt late. LOL. then work all th way till 10PM, lepak with colleagues , & went home tuh bath and slp.

Today ,
woke up at 12plusnoon. then went tuh eat my breakfast , then msg Baby. aft that , she called me and toked tuh her on th phone till 3PM. Baby gave me her blog email add and pw , and i went in Baby blog tuh see see. found out that she used tuh love a malay guy call zaki derhs. then tagged Baby nonsense. LOL. after that , here i am lerhs luhs , updating my pathetic blog. later still gonna work. yeahs , tired lehs. sighs. shall update again soon bahs. gotta run lerhs. take care peeps.

went in tuh my blog and tried tuh go see Her blog , but , realise that She changed Her blog link lerhs. sighssss. why must She do that? am i really bothering Her life? i didnt do anything , i didnt go and fan Her , i just didnt do anything , besides watching over Her silently , keeping myself updated of whats going on with Her life , & i just wanna noe abt Her life. is that too much? i dint expect Her tuh bother abt me , i dint expect Her tuh stop seeing that Zhu , i dint expect just anything. yahs i noe She love Him , i noe th way She treated Him is like so way DIFFERENT from th way She treated me and has been treating Me. She care so much abt Him , while towards me , ta ba wo bu dang yi hui shi. He is impt in Her life , while I'm nothing more than a flea in her eyes. Her words were harsh , & she were cruel like nobody's business. nothing could describe how i felt , besides th word HURT. I noe I'm stupid , i deserved it , cos no one ask me tuh be loving her still. i was th one who asked for all these hurts myself , & im gonna blame no one besides my own stupidity. but its not easy , tuh say forget jiu forget. cos i have always been trying tuh , but have never been able tuh do it. those memories i had with her , have been etched deeply in my heart. Girl , Just tell me why. Why cant you be like my Baby? take care my love , i noe you are leaving for sure , & i cant make you stay. you have found someone special , perhaps someone who is truly better than me. & so i noe , i gotta move on , WITHOUT turning back my head , tuh watch over you. becos you are so happily living under His care. You have been and are Happier than i tot you would be. therefore , im very rest assured tuh carry on walking through my life. i cant deny that i cant bear tuh turn my back against you , & it hurts since i have done that , i still love you , but at th same time , im letting go slowly. i noe i had , cos at least this time round when you hurt me again , I DIDNT CRY___*

SCREAMED at Friday, November 13, 2009

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Pics taken on Monday. see th first pic , thats Fenny's mom with that Winnie th Pooh derhs shirt. :DD

I noe she loves that.

SCREAMED at Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Monday ,
woke up at 11plus. then went tuh meet Jonas at MS at abt plus. waited for her from 3 till nearly 4 luhs. but nvm , she is sick. so i understand lahs :D then we went tuh eat at MS mac, my old workplace. heh heh. saw my last time derhs colleague ^^ after that , we went ard MS , while waiting for Baby. Baby was at Chinatown. then at abt 6 plus , we trained tuh Outram Park tuh meet up with Baby and Fenny. Then 4 of us cabbed down tuh sengkang , Fenny's house. then sitsit at her house , tok tuh her mom , then we tgt with her family went tuh compass point. wen there tuh shop for their things. went back tuh Fenny's house to eat dinner , then me , Jonas and Baby cabbed back home at 12plus midnight. Baby paid th cab fares for us. Thanks Baby ! im sorry tuh make you spend so much money on me. D: $23+ derhs cab fare lehs ! wth. so ex luhs. lucky have my Baby with me. then Baby sent me back tuh my house , she waited for me at my hosue outside while i went in tuh put my things and all. after that , pei Baby go 7-11 buy drinks. ^^ then she walked me back home. so swt of her rights? LOL. But th sad thing is that , Baby is just NOT Her. T.T then Kevin came tuh send her back home lerhs luhs. while i went up tuh bath and slp liaos.

Tuesday,
went tuh work at 12 till 6PM. then went tuh meet Jonas at Parkway, after that , me and Jonas kup cab go down tuh ECP , Xiaoer's chalet. ther got Aubrey , Meibao , Winnie , Sher , Kelle , Kelle's Bf , and th rest idk lerhs. then went there tuh toktok , slack slack , and me and Baby quarrelled again. Zzz. my prepay low lerhs then her fren still playplay with me on th phone. wth, macde me very Dulan siahs. then i sent her very harsh msg, th way i tok tuh her also like shit. after that , th later part , then get tuh noe that she went tuh ECP cos she wanna give me a surprise. & th quarrel starts with some misunderstanding. so i asked her tuh reach home lerhs then call me , i wanna slear things up with her. then i went back tuh th fun at th chalet. actually , th chalet quite sian lahs. beside toking , nth i could do lerhs. thats why didnt ton today at th chalet. reached home and bath , and at th same time when i was bathing , i was toking tuh Baby on th phone. i on loudspeak & tok tuh her derhs. style hor? hahahahs. then now just put down th phone with her niahs.

went tuh see her blog, and realised how afraid is she tuh lose Him, how important He is in Her life, how much She treasure Him , how caring is She towards Him , how He brighten up Her day with ramdomness and a simple msg like "guai <3" color="#6600cc">last but not least , Ta you duo zai hu Ta. i cant deny that , as i read through her blog , my heart is breaking , and i felt like tearing , i just dont noe what exactly im thinking, and i just hate tht feeling. How can He do that???? i just wanna noe HOW ! i really dont noe this kinda Her who is so nice and good towards him , cos i have NEVER seen her like this tuh me before. NEVER ! hen sad horhs? sighs. Just too bad i'm not Him , and Baby's not Her. its all just too bad. have been thinking of her , even when im with Baby ytd. walked passed mini toons and saw Pooh bear , and i tot of her again. Fenny's mom wore Pooh bear derhs shirt ytd, and becos of that , i became very friendly tuh her mom , and even took a pic of her mom's shirt. shall post it up later. LOL. i noe i may seems tuh be CRAZY, but i just cant help it. Call me crazy , call me blind , tuh still be suffering thats stupid after all of these time. Did I lose my love tuh someone better? & does He love You like i do ? you noe i really really do. yes , i've been crying since th day , th day you went away. I noe you love him , I noe , & I wont say anything. I 'll stand there and watch you , watch over you , wherever you are , whatever you do , and whenever I can.

SCREAMED at Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Those are th pics that i long time wanna upload lerhs. hahas. these pics got MEMORIES WANT OKAYS ??? sighs. I MISS HER.

SCREAMED at Sunday, November 08, 2009

Friday,
after sch , met Baby at Bedok inter. then Baby pei me go Aljunied mrt tuh meet Jonas. then we 3 trained down tuh Bukit Panjang tuh find Sher. me and Jonas both also pass by place where had alot of memories. and so we both also emo. D: really can feel th heart pain & xin suan derhs feeling. sighs. first when reached Keat Hong , Jonas emotional start. then followed by Phoenix, my turn came. sighs. that kinda heartpain derhs feeling came back , and it hit me real hard. th LRT passed by th coffeeshop where me and Her went for breakfast that day D: wahs , really felt like crying , but held back my tears. Baby was beside me , & i dont wanna show out my TRUE feelings at that point of time. its unfair tuh her. though i cant say i love her , but i still got heart wan okays. then me , Baby , Jonas and Sher went tuh eat Mac. then tgt pei Sher go her there derhs tua. had spooky encounter. then slacked and tok nonsense at th staircase there. i fell down in th drain Dx now my knee got one huge lump liaos. T.T pain siahs. then me , Jonas and i pei Baby cab tuh town tuh meet up with Baby's fren and tuh buy her things. then we went tuh eat at BK. ate fries niahs. :D after that , Baby's fren sent me & Jonas back home, then sent Baby home. thanks for th ride uhs? :D
reached home bath , then went tuh slp liaos. Zzz.

Today ,
woke up at 11plus AM. had a quarrel with Baby early in th morning. long story lahs. but very lame shit derhs. actually Baby say wanna meet me today for movie , then ended up morning tell me that she dont wanna come meet me lerhs. wth rights? then forget it , i went tuh meet Jonas at Bugis tuh carry out OUR brother shopping spree.told Jonas abt me and Baby derhs quarrel. then she help me call Baby , ask her come Bugis find us.after tat , pei Jonas go Pastamania eat , then we go start out shopping spree lerhs. hahas. she bought polo and formals , berms. and so did i. spent over $90 at Bugis Str. bought 1 longsleeve formal , 2 berms , and 1 Polo Tee. wahs , broke lerhs lahs. still need tuh go alter my berms. cost a bomb mans Dx saw Ahmin when was at Bugis Str. then talked tuh her, &exchanged num. bought th formal from her shop , U.P $40 . then Ahmin help me press until $36.
Thanks yeahs? hope tuh meet you soon :D
then Baby came tuh meet us at Illuma at 3plus. then we went tuh Illuma derhs Asian Kitchen tuh eat. me and Baby eat fried rice. Baby treat me eat :D so nice of her rights? hahahas. she is th only girl who treat me this and that derhs. hahas. felt so pampered by her. enjoy that kinda feeling , but why is she not Her? 2 words tuh describe , IF ONLY~then Jyuan came tuh join us. hahas. so while waiting for Jyuan tuh finish eating , Baby ordered desserts tuh eat. Mango sago-This Dessert Brings Me Back Tuh That Couple Date With Her. D: Baby feed me eat, hahas. she so pamper me derhs luhs , LOL. she is like th bung , and im th girl. hahahas. she even help me tuh wipe my fingers and mouth after eating. sweet rights? hahas. then after that , Baby went tuh OG , Jonas and Jyuan went tuh find Sher , and me , being th pathetic one , trained back tuh Tam tuh work alone. Shags. worked till 10plus as usual , then went home lerhs. then here i am, blogging. Baby is now at Pasir Ris, her frens' BBQ. i havent bath yet , gonna bath soon. shall end here , with alot of misses for Her.

i read your blog, and He seems tuh be very important in your life , so important that you were afraid that He might be angry with you , and all. can tell that ni hen ting ta derhs hua. & He can take better control of you. perhaps , He can take really good care of you bahs, better than i could. Perhaps , He is th one who can really bring you TRUE happiness tuh your life bahs. But also , I really wanna see , how long will this last , how long will His love for you be , how long will He treat you gd ? lets just see how long bahs. IF , He can love you more and longer than i do , treat you gd longer than i did, and IF His love for you can last longer than mine, i have nth tuh say. and i will just be happy for you. but pls girl , dont say He is better than me , cos i have once love and pampered you more than he does. i have let you go , and im still struggling tuh forget you , & you noe girl , how much my heart hurts.

SCREAMED at Sunday, November 08, 2009

Friday, November 6, 2009

Wednesday,
dint go tuh sch. went tuh see doc & got myself a MC :D then went tuh work at 6PM till 10PM. went home after that. toked tuh Sher and Jonas on th phone till 2plus AM. then went tuh slp lerhs. LOL.

Thurs,
went tuh sch. then after sch , went tuh meet Sher and Jonas at Eunos MRT platform. then tgt trained down tuh Lavender tuh find Baby at ICA building , Baby went there tuh make new passport. then me , Baby , Sher and Jonas trained down tuh Tiong Bahru tuh eat. ate SUBWAY. then saw my DIDI GOWRI. then she pei us go buy present , for PohYing. me and Sher kup th present. then we trained back. Baby pei train tuh Bedok :D then i go home & bath lerhs , jiu go work liaos. was damn late for work. reached there at abt 7PM when i was actually working at 6PM ! 1 hour LATE lehs ! sry guys. was doing cakes station ytd , my first time doing cakes, so was kinda NOOB lahs. then end work at 10 , then pei my colleagues go TM mac eat. :D after that , went home and bath , jiu slp liaos. Zzz.

Today ,
is th LAST DAY of SCHOOL ! hooRAY! hahahahahahas ! HAPPY MANS ! quick , CONGRAT ME ! ^^ BHB* LOL. was damn LATE for sch. reached sch at abt 930AM. hahahas. not that i late wake up , but becos i met my classmates , Merlene , KaiQin , & Andy for breakfast. LOL. took 3 buses then reach my destination. it wasnt far, but was my FIRST TIME going that place , cos Merlene stay near there. then when i reach lerhs , they finished eating liaos. never wait for me ! hahahas. then they all see me eat. LOL. so embarassing. LOL. then went tuh sch. so now , im at sch lerhs luhs , using my tcher Miss Hidayah derhs com tuh update my precious BLOG ^^ hahahas. later im meeting Jonas :D think she will be coming tuh my sch outside tuh fetch me later bahs. hahahahs. then we later gg tuh Bukit Panjang tuh find Sher :D yahs , then at night working at 6 PM again. hahahahas. tmr i gg tuh Bugis tuh buy my clothes. Hahahahahas. okays lahs , i shall blog off lerhs. my tcher waiting for me tuh finish using her com. hahahas. take care peeps.

Just wish that He is th one who will take care of your heart. but , i still miss you so. some words are better left UNSAID. you will never noe how i feel and have been thinking all along , cos i never choose tuh show. i still love you so.

SCREAMED at Friday, November 06, 2009

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Today ,
Went tuh sch as usual. sch ends at 12.30PM. early rights? LOL. then after that i went tuh see my principal , he wants tuh see me abt my result. then after that, Serina told me that she was outside my sch waiting for me tuh come out lerhs. wahs. step touching siahs. LOL. then we bused tuh Bedok inter , and she treat me eat Long John. so nice of her uhs? LOL. i wanted tuh pay for myself derhs , but she just paid for me , and i also dont have small note mahs. LOL. so okays luhs. had my lunch with her at Long John luhs. then we bused tuh Bugis tuh meet her fren. then pei her fren shop shop awhile , then i go meet Vanessa at th Burger King there. she inside and outside really very diff siahs. she outside more cute and better looking. hahahas. toked cock with her , while waiting for Serina & her frens tuh finish their shopping. then Serina came tuh find me , tgt with Vanessa they all. then we go Illuma walk walk. after that , Serina then send me tuh th bus stop tuh take bus home. LOL. can say me and her derhs status now is attached lerhs bahs. LOL. idk also lahs. i just noe that she treat me very gd , compared tuh how Cindy treated me. maybe she is th girl tuh payback whatever i have lost tuh Cindy bahs? after that , reached home at abt 6plus PM. then went tuh eat at my house there derhs coffeeshop with my dad. then go home lerhs luhs.

i read her blog , and found out that she is getting on better than i thought she would be getting on. she has been mixing ard with her TRUE frens. lets just see how long all these would last bahs. i also noticed that there is a new character appear in her life lerhs, and she seems tuh treat him v gd , better than how she treated me bahs. that guy said that he would treat her better , but i dont tink he can treat her as gd as i can bahs. i would be happy for her , if she has found someone better. but if she has not , and still tink that she has , i would probably be just laughing my ass out at her. today i went tuh Illuma , bugis str , and all. wherever i went , it bring me back tuh those memories that me and her shared in th past. i treasure those memories , and how much i wish that i could go back tuh th time when she loved me. i noe for sure , its IMPOSSIBLE. & i dont tink she even treat those memories as memories luhs. perhaps she just treat all those as a junk of craps bahs. saddening, but i will be strong and move on , as how she had do it.

SCREAMED at Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Monday, November 2, 2009

Today ,
woke up at 8+. then went tuh bath then go sch lerhs. was very late cans. reached sch at 10AM =.= then sch ends at 2 plus. then bused tuh bedok inter tuh meet Jonas. tgt we bused tuh Changi Airport T3 derhs Hongkong cafe tuh eat. wahs , th food there so ex and so ordinary luhs. NOT WORTH IT ! really. then meet Clara and Xiwen they all , then tgt go tam. cos gotta collect my pay. then collected my pay lerhs, jiu went tuh Carls Jr tuh slack. bought a drink and sit down there tok. then we went tuh buy ice cream , th one that i bought when i was with Cindy. sighs. after that , we went tuh TM derhs mac eat fries :D then went tuh deposit money, jiu bused home lerhs. reached home at 9plus PM. bath , jiu go slp liaos. Zzz.

i've been thinking , how have she been doing , have she gotten herself a job , how she can survive , and all. i miss her , i admit i do, seriously. but i just gonna move on , & get this over. its not easy , i must say. but i not i just gotta do it. i've been thinking of her , all along. but i noe , i cant be xin luan , and i noe i WONT. i've GIVEN UP , but have NOT FORGET her. i still love her , but i noe its impossible. If only she will change , and be compassionate abit , treat me like how Jolene did. i tink , all these just wont happen. but i noe , she never & will never change. its just all too bad , i noe. sighs. Girl , i still miss you so. i really do. really hope you will noe how tuh tink , and noe how tuh take care of yourself.

SCREAMED at Monday, November 02, 2009

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Thurs ,
dint go sch. planned tuh see doc, but i overslept. slept till 11plus. then went tuh eat and went tuh work at 3PM tuh 10PM. aft work , lepak with my colleagues at mac for awhile , then go home lerhs. reached home at abt 12midnight, then talked tuh Cindy , Sher , Jonas , Aubrey , Sarah , on th phone. toked abt alot of things , craps lahs. but managed tuh clear certain things up. talked till 3AM, then went tuh bath and slp lerhs :D

Friday ,
again dint go tuh sch. went tuh work at 5PM , till 10PM. then lepak with my colleagues at Tam Mrt there. Nikki sat on my leg , whoa , heavy jack ! then tok cock and make dirty jokes. went home at 12midnight. msgmsg Jolene till 12+AM , then went tuh slp lerhs. me and her suddenly mdg till like couple like that. hahahas. gatal back luhs. hahahahas. im not trying tuh play her heart ahs , just that im too tired tuh love and scared of hurts lerhs. DOORS OF MY HEART ARE CLOSED AT TH MOMENT :) Just wanna get Her bloody off my mind , & change my attention tuh th new Jolene. :D too bad , she's straight. nvm , slowly. LOL. hahahahas. aiyah , i also dont mind if i get or never get Jolene derhs , cos get or not , it wont hurt me a cell. EMERSON DOESN'T LIVE OFF WOMEN , RMB??? :DDD

Sat ,
woke up at 10am. then went tuh bath then went tuh work lerhs. worked at 12noon, all th way till 10PM closing. wahs , 10 hours siahs , pengsan ahs. but work made me not think of anything that i dont wanna think. :D then Teresa sent me tuh take bus :D
Thanks girl :D I wont leak your secrets out derhs , you also dont leak mine yeahs? :D
then reached home at 12midnight , then went tuh bath and toked tuh Jiayuan on th phone.
Jiayuan , thanks for listening tuh me nag wor. APPRECIATED :D
went tuh slp aft that.

Today ,
woke up at 9plus AM. then went tuh buy b'fast for my family. then eat b'fast lerhs , then go bath lerhs , jiu go meet Jolene at Tam inter derhs Mac. :D we work at th same time mahs. 12-6PM :D then after work, treat her tuh dinner:D hahahas. wanted tuh treat her drinks also derhs , but she is just so stubborn , fight with me tuh pay money. LOL? hahas. cute lahs she. LOL. but again , she is STRAIGHT. sians. Zzz. then after dinner , sent her until her house derhs lift there, then i go home lerhs. hahas. she keep say go out with me she very shy? LOL. but she is straight lehs. aiyahs , idk lehs. no reason for her tuh be shy also luhs. WTH =.= then now im at lan shop updating my rotting blog. hahahahas. tmr gg tuh sch. sianns.

Idk why , when im with Jolene , i tend tuh have th intentions tuh treat her like how i treated Cindy. Pamper her , pay everything for her , and treat her like how i treated Cindy. maybe , this has been a habit lerhs bahs, just that now im taking Jolene as a substitute for Cindy? maybe bahs , idk lahs. i cant say that i fall for Jolene , th fact is , i didnt. is just that , im trying tuh gatalgatal with her bahs i guess? becos , even though she told me that she is straight and wont be crook , i just sians diao , im not even sad or brooding over it. & i noe , th doors of my heart is no longer opened, becos someone had killed it totally. i admit , i still love her , but i also must say , that i WONT xin luan anymore. NOT ANYMORE ! & i noe , im gonna make her see that im not someone for her tuh make use of anymore , im NOT like th last time me lerhs , last time derhs foolish me. now derhs me , im a very hard-hearted & jue qing towards her. i can bear tuh do anything now , trust me. try me if you want.

SCREAMED at Sunday, November 01, 2009