hurts after hurts *

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

These are pics taken on SATURDAY'S COUPLE DATE ! :D
& MI TANG is ALWAYS soooooooooo ZI LIAN !!! LOL !!!

SCREAMED at Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Monday, September 28, 2009

SAT ,

went for COUPLE DATE with jonas , wyn , me and MI TANG. :D morning i cooked main xian for my MI TANG. prepared HL MILK for her too. :D sweet right me? my AI XIN BREAKFAST. LOL! gathered at jonas house first, then set off tuh vivo. can say it was not as perfect lahs. but at least better then nothing. LOL. Dint get tuh watch until movie D: but nvm lahs. went tuh eat at asian kitchen. jonas and wyn eat niahs , i and MI TANG never eat. not hungry lahs. hahas. morning ate liaos. xD then after that , went tuh fag, walkwalk, see see luhs. SIAN rights? th whole week have been walking non stop. =.= WTH ! ENDLESS WALKING ~ then after tat , we bused back tuh jonas house. went tuh prata shop tuh eat. damned hungry lerhs. haas. bought fag also. so buy this buy that till puo chan liaos. cant wait tuh get my pay :D eat lerhs , jonas , me and MI TANG jiu pei wyn cab home luhs. WTH , damn far lahs cans. then alight from th cab , my MI TANG suddenly vomitted. she hasnt been feeling that well. TAKE CARE YEAHS? pei wyn tok tok at her house derhs staircase with jonas and MI TANG all. fagged , tok cock, and jump here and there like children. hahas ! =X okays lahs , had fun luhs. hmms. MI TANG isnt happy at all ! Dx i HATE tuh see her like this ! i dont wan tuh see her cry , dont wanna see her sad , just dont wanna see her in this state. it breaks my heart tuh see all these happening tuh her. but yet i cant be of help. this kinda feeling just sucks totally. arghs ~! i dont noe why is all these happening mans. haish. i just hate tuh see her like this. really HATE ! trained back home with jonas. by th time i reached bedok, it was already 12:31 midnight lerhs. and th last bus left at 12:30. wth ~ =.= so bobian luhs, had tuh walk home.

SUN ,

woke up at 10AM , called jonas and met her at aljunied MRT. then tgt trained down tuh boonlay meet MI TANG tuh pass her her things. then went tuh MOS burger cos jonas wan tuh eat. after that , MI TANG go off with her fren sheena lerhs luhs while me and jonas trained down tuh woodlands tuh find KUANQI. intended tuh clear things out with her and all but things just got so messed up ! Dx called MI TANG using my hp and on loudspeaker then tgt, me , KUANQI and MI TANG toked luhs. COMPLICATED lahs ~! made me felt so STRESSED and FRUSRATED ! then jonas and me pei KUANQI and her family go causeway point walkwalk. then LITING came over tuh find us. walk walk till 4 plus , LITING and jonas went off first lerhs luhs. so left me alone with KUANQI and her family luhs. KUANQI sent me tuh th inter tuh take bus at 5plus. & im working at 6 ! wahs , DAMN SUPER LATE lerhs lahs cans ~~~ took 168 straight back home tuh change and off i go tuh work. reached workplace at abt 7:30 , can you imagine how late i was???!!! kena warned by my manager siahs D: then worked all th way till 10PM. then went home tuh bath and slp lerhs luhs. next day have tuh go sch mahs.

MONDAY ,

went tuh jonas house tuh find MI TANG after sch. then slack slack at her house till abt 4 plus , then we went tuh eat mac luhs. MI TANG paid for us. D: dont like siahs. i dont like tuh spend gals' money derhs , ESP HERS ! then jonas walk me and MI TANG tuh th bus stop tuh take bus. MI TANG wanna take 30 tuh jurong , while i have tuh take 14 back home. so reached home at abt 6PM.

TUESDAY ,

met jonas and MI TANG at jonas house there derhs bus stop. then again , we 3 bused tuh lavender MRT tuh take train tuh AMK. cos jonas wanna fetch LITING back tuh SGH. then while waiting for LITING tuh come meet us , me , jonas and MI TANG went tuh pepper lunch tuh eat. after that , LITING came , and so did MI TANG's cousin. as LITING was in a rush tuh go back SGH, jonas pei her back first while me , MI TANG and her cousin walkwalk ard AMK hub. waited for jonas tuh come back AMK hub meet us till very long , so MI TANG decided tuh ask jonas take cab tuh AMK hub , she will pay for th cab fare. somemore her cousin need tuh rush down back tuh YEWTEE cos she has tuh go back tuh sch. jonas reached lerhs, then again we 4 ppl take cab tuh YEWTEE tuh send MI TANG's cousin back tuh sch. again , MI TANG is th one paying. X.X then after that , me and jonas pei MI TANG take bus tuh JURONGPOINT, cos she need tuh go back tuh her fren house tuh take money. so we waited for her at JURONGPOINT luhs. slacked & fagged as usual. sians =.= MI TANG had moodswings which i dont noe how tuh react & what tuh say, how tuh approach her and cheer her up. this kinda feeling just SUCKS. tuh be frank , I DREAD for her moodswings cos it will only made me feel so LOST , CONFUSED , DISAPPOINTED , and all sorts of feelings lahs. too many tuh describe. so i also moodswing lerhs luhs. dint really tok tuh her lahs. then me and jonas left JURONGPOINT at abt 7plus. trained home and reached home at 8plus gg tuh 9PM. bath and called MI TANG tok on th phone. slept at ard 1AM. tired siahs !!!

TODAY ,

ended sch at 2PM. then heard from my classmate JUNHAO that he got taiji with a guy call CHEN LONG. so i KPOKPO go see show luhs. JUNHAO called her brother come down tuh our sch outside tuh pui with CHEN LONG. then also nth happen lahs. JUNHAO's brother's GF tot i was a GUY and she dont believe that im not. hahas !! funny lahs she. then they just pui th thing , then i see until very sian , so i went off first tuh meet clara and MI TANG at tampines luhs. we pei clara go find her thing & all. then trained down tuh bedok inter find jonas. cos jonas wanna kup fag with me mahs. meet her for awhile niahs then me and MI TANG send clara home luhs. slacked at clara house nearby derhs void deck. toktok , listen songs. clara cried D: she very stressed abt her family thingy too Dx then MI TANG also at there stressed abt money , and stuffs. then i alone one bung mian dui these 2 EMOED gals X.X after that , i pei MI TANG walk tuh TAM inter luhs. she cried while toking on th phone with her fren T.T felt so helpless again. tried tuh comfort her but tuh no avail D: D: D: she asked me th go home first. but i insisted on following her , cos i cant possibly leave her alone tuh cry. i noe she needs someone there tuh be with her. then she stop, and insisted on me going home. feeling so PEKCEK , FRUSTRATED , PISSED OFF , i relented and i just walk off luhs. went tuh play bball cos i wasnt feeling that good. STRESSED UP ! so play bball for awhile tuh relieve my stress Dx reached home at abt 7PM. toked tuh SHEENA on th phone. then here i am , blogging lerhs. haish.
these few days things have not been going on well for me , and my MI TANG. MI TANG is homeless , jobless , penniless and has nothing with her tuh survive. facing tons and lorries of problems with her life , and family , etc. as for me , i have been stressing over my family , money , schoolwork , my job and my COMPLICATE cum CONFUSING LOVE LIFE. just too many problems and stress for me tuh handle ! I'm tired of all these lerhs , and i also need a break too. haish. worried abt alot of things , & one of them is abt HER well-being. arghs ~~~~~ blog off here lerhs lahs. take care everyone , and pls pray for th better for me. thanks !

SCREAMED at Monday, September 28, 2009

Saturday, September 26, 2009

MI TANG is SOOOO ZILIAN ~ =.= hope things will stay like this for long :)

SCREAMED at Saturday, September 26, 2009

YTD ,
sch ended at abt 1PM. then bused down tuh jonas house tuh meet her and MI TANG. after that we intended tuh bused tuh boonlay cos MI TANG wanna take all her things back from her house. and we set off at abt 2 plus 3 like that. half way there , MI TANG suddenly say she forget tuh bring her house key with her. wahs sians =.= so bobian have tuh get down th bus then took bus back tuh get her keys lerhs. after taking her keys , it was like 3:30PM liaos. X.X then i decided tuh call her house and help her check if there is anyone at her house not. Unfortunately , someone picked up th phone , idk who lahs. too nervous lerhs so i just kup th call luhs. =X after that , jonas mom drove pass us then me and MI TANG went tuh buy OREO and apple drink :D hahas. she finally admit angry lerhs. =X hahas ! PEACE \/ then after that , we walked tuh prata shop tuh meet up with jonas again luhs. see jonas eat her dinner luhs.

after that , jonas brought us tuh kallang leisure walk walk. i brought MI TANG go eat KFC :D hahas :)) then we walk walk until saw one doughnut shop then jonas ask me tuh buy doughnut for MI TANG tuh eat. then i buy luhs. bought 2 doughnuts , one for MI TANG and one for myself. jonas dint wan tuh eat mahs. after that , we walkwalk lerhs fag fag lerhs, then decided tuh take th shuttle bus back tuh jonas house there. waited for th shuttle bus for like so LONGGGGG lahs cans. Dx then took th shuttle bus and took MI TANG took so many of her own pics. SO ZILIAN luhs , walaos ! PLEASE HUH ?! hahas =X PEACE \/ shall upload those pics later bahs. :) th shuttle bus dint stop at jonas house. instead it stopped at kallang MRT. wth ~ so from kallang MRT , we walked back tuh jonas house there derhs bus stop tuh pei me wait for my bus. reached home at ard 8plus 9 like that luhs. then tok tuh MI TANG on th phone :) felt so happy while toking tuh her , this MADWOMAN =X kip bullying her. hahas ! she uhs , always STEP CUTE derhs lehs, then kip pester me for HL milk. LOL! MILK FREAK ! hahas !

okays lahs. i shall end here lerhs. can say today really enjoyed myself. & th whole day i just have been so HYPERRRR~~~~ toking alot of nonsense and stuffs. however , my BUATOH was so MOODLESS. whole day so DIAM. she say she dont like i copy her style of treating girls. ?.? idk how all these starts too. but i have let this all go NATURALLY lerhs. sry if i have copied you. but dont wry , i WONT change th way i am treating MI TANG now though. cos i noe , this is th way we wanted us tuh be , for so long. BUATOH , I'm Sorry. But i still love you mans xD take care everyone. :)

SCREAMED at Saturday, September 26, 2009

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Probably th first pic was th one that i enjoyed taking th MOST. :))

SCREAMED at Thursday, September 24, 2009

TODAY ,
went tuh sch at 12noon. it was like damn late lahs cans. cos i really just couldnt wake up. too tired lerhs. :( after that , attended only ONE lesson lerhs then i zhao class lerhs. dint attend th last lesson. =X after that went tuh my sch outside and wait for jonas and MI TANG tuh come. bought a HL milk for MI TANG but in th end she dont wan drink Dx disppointed lahs T.T haish. nvm lahs. cant do anything also lahs. her choice luhs. after that , we bused down tuh th THAI temple tuh praypray luhs. wahs, th weather was like DAMNED HOT lahs cans. tak boleh tahan mans. after praying , bused down tuh bugis walk walk luhs. in th bus , my MI TANG took me and her derhs pic. SWEET ~ ILOVEIT mans xD went tuh illuma tuh slack and fag. then pei jonas go BENTEN eat. after that , we bused down back tuh jonas house there tuh slack slack luhs. then they pei me go eat prata then MI TANG walked me tuh th bus stop. :D happyyy~ bused home then.

reached home at abt 7 going tuh 8. then went tuh bath lerhs jiu called MI TANG lerhs, while waiting for my mom tuh come and fetch us go eat dinner. MI TANG is NOT happy ~~~ T.T haish. it breaks my heart tuh see her in this state now , so i tried calling her mom , thinking that i can help her in a way or rather. but th first time i call , her mom dint pick up. so nvm , i went for my dinner with my family first luhs. wahs , eat till damn full mans. xD then after that , wen home at abt 9plus luhs. change lerhs jiu call MI TANG'S mom again. this time round , she picked up. but she said alot of things that hurt MI TANG Dx shall not state everything down here. CONFIDENTIAL ~ i have tried my best tuh reconcile MI TANG and her mom derhs relationship lerhs. but tuh no avail. haish. im so disappointed in myself. cant even be of help tuh her when she need.

MITANG , I'm sorry for not being able tuh be of help tuh you. Dont sad lerhs. i noe you must be feeling really down & helpless now bahs. haish. how i wished i could be there tuh wipe your tears away when you cry , and give you my shoulder tuh lean on when you need someone. but i noe , im not able tuh do that. but GIRL , i give you my word , i will try my best tuh be there for you whenever you fall, being a support tuh you when you are weak. how i wished i could be th one tuh cheer you up when you EMO , instead of jonas. but at times , i just dont noe how tuh. im sorry GIRL, i noe im useless. pls forgive me. i just couldnt help it. even though you may sound as if you are okay , but deep inside you noe you are crying. now GIRL , i have a favour tuh ask from you , pls DO NOT turn me down tuh be th one who will always be there tuh listen tuh you , stand by you , and wipe away your tears, be th one who ADORES & LOVE you. cos GIRL , you noe that , when i do that , it came TRULY from my heart. cos i NEVER wanna see you cry, NOT ANYMORE. it breaks my HEART , and i can take it NO MORE ~

okays lahs , i shall blog off now lerhs. MI TANG , CHEER UP. comes whatever , you noe you still have me , i'll always be there tuh listen, and there for you tuh turn tuh. dont tink abt th PAST lerhs alrights? lets be forward looking , and lets work hard tgt towards OUR FUTURE ((: Take care everyone , esp HER :D

~ Pls let me love you , and pamper you like i never do ~

SCREAMED at Thursday, September 24, 2009

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

YTD ,
after sch , went tuh Jonas house tuh meet jonas and MI TANG. then tgt we bused tuh boonlay cos MI TANG wanna go back and take her things. wahs , you noe how far mahs? can go crazy siahs. =/ after that , we bused back tuh jonas house. wahs , my MI TANG took alot of thing lahs. DA BAO XIAO BAO derhs , like going camping like that luhs. hahas ! then slack at jonas house awhile , then jonas and MI TANG sent me tuh th bus stop tuh wait for bus. :) before leaving, i did something very damn PAISEH ! i never been that PAISEH in my whole life mans xD i miss skill and ... heh heh. dont wan say lahs. LOL. only me jonas and MI TANG noe what took place niahs. hahs ! secrets =X

TODAY , after sch , my dad drove me home tuh take my things then i went tuh bedok library tuh do my HW luhs. =.= after that , i went tuh cut hair lerhs , jiu bused down tuh jonas house tuh meet up with jonas and MI TANG. actually today planned tuh go tuh th THAI temple derhs , but dont have time D= after that , me jonas and MI TANG bused tuh PP walk walk. sians ~ then i send them tuh bus stop tuh wait for their bus. my turn tuh send them lerhs. hahas! but before they left, i finally did it mans xDDD so happy lahs ! hahas. and i laughed all th way from th bus stop tuh th opp bus stop. hahas. basically just laughing tuh myself. how SILLY ! hahas. ppl dont noe tot i mad , laughing tuh myself. hahas. WTH ~ then reached my bus stop , i finally got cool of myself. :) so i bused back home lerhs luhs. :)) reached home lerhs , i do my own thing , i tok tuh sarah on th phone for awhile then went tuh bath lerhs. hahas. and now , im so tired lerhs. gonna slp soon lerhs bahs. waiting for my MI TANG tuh call me. :D okay lahs. end here first. tmr got sch , must slp early :) take care everyone :D

SCREAMED at Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Monday, September 21, 2009

YESTERDAY , went tuh work at 11plusAM. cos my manager ask we all tuh reach there earlier. hari raya , no malay staff is working. only we all th chinese niahs. damn boring luhs , but evening time jiu got alot of ppl lerhs. wahs busy like hell mans. can go crazy mans. then 7plusPM , jonas and MI TANG came tuh find me at my workplace. followed by MAINE and AUBREY. jonas and MI TANG came in tuh my workplace and ordered smth tuh eat there. hahas. saw them there i very pressure ahs wan tuh work. hahas. then after that they all left tuh go walk walk at tam one first while waiting for me tuh end work at 10PM. after work , i meet them and we went tuh one coffee shop tuh slack luhs. SIAN ~ then MAINE and AUBREY went off first. left me , jonas and MI TANG. then we bused down tuh ECP tuh ton. well , in th bus, i was like so blessed luhs. dont wanna say what happened =X how i wished th bus journey wont end luhs. but.. haish. nvm , reached marine crescent lerhs we met jonas fren first. then tgt walk tuh ECP. bought 6 cans of carlsberg, and drank at ECP. they drink but i never drink. cos i cant drink , currently on medication. so sad Dx i also wan drink lahs, so long never drink lerhs siahs. fuck shit luhs. me and MI TANG kena wash brain by jonas. this and that lahs. and MI TANG was so seh after drinking abt 2 cans only? cos she very long never drink lerhs. i enjoy spending those times with her too. HEAVENLY mans ! xD but something FUCKED UP happened. MI TANG accidentally knocked down th beer on my pants. wahs, so WET lahs. My WHOLE pants also kena lehs. from top tuh bottom lehs. shit luhs x.x after that , we tot it gonna rain lerhs so we walk back tuh jonas fren house nearby tuh slack. and i was like so awake while jonas and MI TANG so seh lahs. i one have tuh handle two "DRUNKARDS" hahas ! then my BUATOH and MI TANG vomit otw tuh jonas fren place. i was so helpless lahs cans. wth ~ luckily got jonas fren at there pei me take care of them ahs. THANKS ahs :D after that , we tok cock , until all of us K.O at th void deck. woke up at 6 plus in th morning lerhs. then bused down tuh jonas house tuh bath and slp. and now im at jonas house luhs. hahas. jonas is now eating and MI TANG still slping. SIAN~ i later still gotta work at 6PM tuh 10 PM. shags ~~~ till here i shall blog off lerhs bahs. tmr schling lerhs. sians Zzz take care peeps :D

SCREAMED at Monday, September 21, 2009

Sunday, September 20, 2009

JUST NOW , went out at 4plus PM , bused tuh bedok MRT and then took train tuh city hall tuh meet JONAS and LITING. then tgt we trained down tuh TOA PAYOH tuh find my MITANG and sarah. then , meet lerhs , slack slack awhile , fag fag , tok tok luhs. JONAS and LITING so LOVING lahs cans. hahas. forever hughug kiss kiss derhs. hahahas ! then they two kip encouraging me tuh hold cindy's hand and hug her. WTF~ so PAISEH lahs cans. LOLOLOLS. well , in th end... i dont wanna say lahs. hahas. dont wanna let anyone noe. hahas ! after tat , i tink becos we have made too much noise and were too loud , got one UNCLE shouted at us and asked us tuh DIAMDIAM ! that UNCLE is drunk lahs okays. then anyhow scold us. then LITING got so provoked and she scold back th UNCLE. then th UNCLE walk towards her. so upon seeing this , th two bungs ( ME and JONAS ) stood up and stop th UNCLE for th fear that he may do anything tuh LITING. wahs, why TAO PAYOH derhs ppl so RETARDED derhs. intially came one WEIRD AUNTIE who toked nonsense with JONAS becos JONAS accidentally knock until her , then came this SIAOSIAO derhs UNCLE who intended tuh fight with LITING , a gal. so LAME lahs cans. RETARDED -.-" after that , we walked tuh th MRT station there cos LITING and my MITANG very irrtated with th UNCLE lerhs. then LITING punched th wall. so my MITANG stopped her and scolded her for doing that. so my MITANG got very hot and irritated too then she punched th wall also. walaos ! and i tried tuh stop her and comfort her but tuh no avail. she did not seem tuh feel any better. after that we went tuh NTUC walk walk see see. cos since th two ladies are so HOT , and me and JONAS th 2 bungs get so fed up , trying tuh comfort them , so go in NTUC tuh enjoy th aircon also gd lahs. hahahas ! then after that i left tuh work. from TOA PAYOH trained all th way tuh TAM. reached work at 7:50PM when i supposed tuh start work at 6PM ! i was DAMN LATE lahs cans !!! work all th way tuh 10PM then got briefing till abt 11PM. so after that , i bused home lerhs luhs. reached home at abt 11:45PM. then ah maine suddenly msg me and ask me why i never online. then i called her and tok on th phone with her till abt 1PM like that. then went tuh bath. and here i am lerhs luhs. gg tuh slp soon liaos. tired ! tmr have tuh work at 12 PM. all th way till 10PM. 10 hours. how tiring lahs Dx now , my MI TANG is at LITING house. just now after work i called LITING and asked her abt my MITANG and she told me that my MITANG slp lerhs. also good lahs , she is too tired lerhs i guess. she sick some more. hope she can really have a gd rest bahs.
MI TANG , GET WELL SOON ! take care okays ? IMISSYOU ~ & i cant believe that just now i actually... arghs , nvm. hahas ! =X
okays lahs. i gonna blog off lerhs. gg tuh slp liaos. take care everyone. gd night ! :)

SCREAMED at Sunday, September 20, 2009

Saturday, September 19, 2009

ytd midnight , just right after i finished my previous post , i text HAFIFAH and ask her where are they all. here is our text conversation:

HAFIFAH : " At khatib lar. Y? "
ME : " Just asking. Cannot? "
HAFIFAH : " Cnt ah. can disturb her arhs? "
ME : " you huan loh "
HAFIFAH : " Eh i huan loh also i care abt her la please. At least she love me. "
ME : " She love you? your prob la. i also nv ask you , you dont have to tell me
also. Eh halo, i can tell you i care abt her more than you this newcomer bung la ok nb "
HAFIFAH : " please la. so what i newcomer. At least i win her heart over.
ME : " dont step one la ok. you win her heart? you sure? don make me laugh. what did you do for her? "
HAFIFAH : " Step? Haha! Whr gOt time wan 2 step all dat. At least i m a faithful bung unlike sOme ppl Out there. pls ahk. GOt One gal enuf areadi. Wan 2 find more 4 wad. "
ME : " Some other bung out there? You faithful? Zun bo , lets see lo. you dont have tuh care so much derhs. anything still not sua , i'll welcome you here anytime "
HAFIFAH : "Pls la. At least more faithful than you okay? At th very least, i didnt hurt her. "
ME : " Wat more faithful than me? You are at no place tuh compare with me yet la. Well, since when i hurt her? At least i love her more than you do , thats for sure. "
HAFIFAH : " you sure or nt? Ue luv her? Pls huh?! "
ME : " yahs lahs , what makes you tink that im not "
HAFIFAH : " BcOz u hurt her b4. I dun even dare hurt a gal's heart. Haish ! "
ME : " She hurt me much more deeper. & I've once given her my all but did you? "

after that , she never reply me lerhs. Lan Lan ~! wahs , angry siahs. after that i went down tuh buy thing eat. and by th time i reach home , 3plus AM liaos. then go slp lerhs luhs. then this morning, woke up at 1PM. called jonas and tok tuh cindy. cindy dont wan me tuh go find her. idk why lahs. haish. she at night also dont noe will call me mahs. but i dont tink she will call me lahs. haish. idk why lahs !!! arghs ! HEN FAN arghs~~~ i wanna pass a spare phone tuh her yet she dont wanna meet me, she gg meet sarah. haish. nvm lahs , i dont wanna make her think that i wanna force her. then i say ok luhs. then now jonas just called me and tell me that sarah cannot find cindy. wahs, where has cindy gone tuh derhs? why she always like tuh make me wry abt her derhs? ytd like that , today still like that. haish. hope she is fine bahs. now raining and she is still sick lehs. im really guilty for not being able tuh be there for her and take care of her at this point of time when she is so weak and vulnerable and need someone tuh be there for her. she has no money , no phone , nothing ! and i cant be of help. i have tuh work later. cant dont go , if dont go , i wil kena fine by my company $2oo lehs. how siahs? T.T i noe im a FAILURE , cant even take care of "her". Im sorry , I noe I'm useless.

hope you will noe how tuh take care of yourself bahs. how i wish im by your side now. but i cant. im sry mitang , i really am. call me soon , im worried sick. even though i may act as if i dont care a fuck abt you , but you noe deep inside , wo shi hen zai hu ni derhs. just that i chose not tuh show it out. i have been controling myself not tuh care too much abt you , if not you will find me "FAN". but th fact is that , i cant stop myself from worrying abt you and caring abt you.

~im struggling deep inside. take care of yourself bahs. IMISSYOU~
* 090908 ,, I'm still waiting for you tuh open up your heart for me once again *

SCREAMED at Saturday, September 19, 2009

today , woke up at 5plus tuh sch. then whole day in sch is like so tired lahs. kept falling aslp T.T then after sch , i bused down tuh jonas house. "she" is sick D= then me and jonas took care of her luhs. cooked noodle for her tuh eat luhs. then slack at her house till abt 4plus then me , cindy , and jonas bused down tuh tiong bahru tuh meet aubrey. then went tuh eat first then we bused down tuh bukit merah inter tuh meet sher. then i slack with cindy and jonas at one corner. toktok, fag fag luhs. hahas. after that , me , jonas and cindy took bus 16 back tuh bedok. but jonas alight first. then me and cindy alight at my house there derhs bus stop. then i walk with her tuh th bball court there tuh find kat, but she halfway there say she dont wanna go. i tink she is tired lerhs bahs. haish. then she ask me go find kat alone , while she wil go my house there wait for me. but i dont tink she noe how tuh walk tuh my house luhs. went tuh tok tuh kat for like less than a min and "she" is gone ! then saw my brothers, then entertain them , pei them walk tuh th bubble tea shop, then i ask my bro tuh help me hold my bag while i go and search for cindy. so i actually RUN back there tuh th same spot , and looked up and down for her. i actually cant run derhs becos my knee but bobian ! i was so WORRIED lahs cans ! i dont noe why i became so worried lahs. can say just now was my FIRST time looking for a gal until like tat luhs. sweat all over , nearly fall down , and just dash across th road without even notice abt th cars. i tink im too worried and anxious abt "her" lerhs bahs. really felt so regret tuh have left her alone there T.T haish. SORRY ! arghs ~ i really REGRET tuh have let her go on her own siahs T.T
* mi tang , im sry for just now , cos i promised my fren tuh go find her for awhile derhs. and you also dint wan tuh go with me. you noe how WORRIED was i ? i went looking for you like hell. but just couldnt find you. im sry. haish. i shouldnt have did that. for that moment , i felt as though i have lost smth that i cant afford tuh lose. i was worried sick. really , i have tuh admit that i was. now you have gone tuh meet your WHOEVER lerhs , you noe how sot am i ? arghs~ call me soon lahs. i miss you !
then after that , i went back home luhs. and immediately when i reached home, i called jonas and told her abt it. then she told me that cindy is otw tuh khatib tuh meet her frens lerhs. then i get tuh find out that she meet HAFIFAH ! wahs , wtf lahs cans. why out of all , HAFIFAH siahs ?!?!?! arghs ! SOT luhs. then cindy use HAFIFAH phone call me and she told me that she is toning with HAFIFAH tonight. WTF !!! angry luhs! but i just say ok and ask her tuh enjoy with HAFIFAH luhs. so nvm luhs , her wish , i also cant force her. then i msg HAFIFAH and ask her tuh take care of cindy. then she reply and say that she is cindy's guy , of cos she will take care of her laahs. WTF !!!!!!! you noe how sot i was mahs?

FIRSTLY , she's not a GUY , she is merely a NEWCOMER and NOOB BLOODY BUTCH !
SECONDLY , cindy is NOT even her gal !

what on earth is happening mans !?!? but i dont wan cindy tuh tink that im being OVERPROTECTIVE/OVER SENSITIVE/ OVER CONCERNED of her thats why i never kan HAFIFAH derhs. if not , i already call her straight away and fuck her upside down lerhs lahs. i tahan myself only. *ROARS* wahs, im feeling so sucks right now. "she" is toning with HAFIFAH tonight. out of so many ppl , why HAFIFAH !!! Dx arghs ! alot of thing happen luhs. BEFORE cindy meet HAFIFAH , i also got call HAFIFAH and was pissed off by one of her sentence. she told me that she is CINDY'S ADMIRE ! wahs ! fuck lahs ! so BHB derhs bung also got? SHI BAI uhs ! KUNCU TAK MENGJADI ! arghhhhs! im feeling very vexed now. shall end here lerhs lahs. take care. and thanks for listening tuh me KAOPEI at here. WO ZHEN DERHS HEN FANNNNNNN~~~~~

SCREAMED at Saturday, September 19, 2009

Thursday, September 17, 2009

THANKYOU , my dearest BUATOH JonasY :D
for all your help today. Today , i woke up at 8:30AM. thats so early luhs. i dint go sch today. cos i have tuh go back tuh th TB unit tuh collect my medicine. so can escape from sch for a day :D hahas. so i woke up lerhs then gave my BUATOH JonasY wake up call. then went tuh prepare and everything so left house at 9plus AM luhs. headed towards BEDOK inter tuh meet jonas. then we trained down tuh NOVENA tuh see doc. after seeing doc, we went down tuh batok tuh meet my MI TANG, and followed by her sister. played arcade derhs bball for awhile while waiting for her sister tuh come. then tgt from batok trained down tuh jurong east cos jonas suggested tuh go IMM. but half way there, LITING called and asked jonas tuh fetch her back tuh SGH. then we cabbed down tuh AMK tuh send LITING back luhs. from AMK , we took bus 25 back tuh hougang, then we walk tuh SGH. but in th bus , i sat beside my MI TANG , and she out of a sudden cried. i asked her sister why she cry, her sister told me that her "bf" wan tuh lend 50 bucks from her. wahs , damn dulan lahs. th "bf" is hafifah i tink. wtf. she actually becos of hafifah cry lehs. then i very sot too. got off th bus lerhs , then i also cant control my tears. she still have feeling for hafifah?? wahs, it was like , wo na yi dian su gei yi ge just turn bung derhs ren? wahs , SOT siahs ! then i toked tuh LITING and JONAS abt everything. both of them gave me diff advices and now im so CONFUSED. =/ after that , we walk LITING back in luhs and she suddenly msg me and tell me smth that left me smiling all th way. well , shall not post it down here. hahas. SECRETS ! heh heh.quite UNEXPECTED lahs. then sent LITING back in lerhs , we bused down tuh bugis meet xiaohong and sarah. slack awhile with them then i headed back home lerhs cos my mom is nagging liaos , so JONAS pei CINDY go tiong bahru meet aubrey. wahs , my BUATOH suddenly become so gd hor? not bad. hehe. suddenly like so concerned abt CINDY wor. hahahas. (jking hor) after that , CINDY and JONAS cabbed down tuh bedok inter tuh meet me , then i bring them over tuh my house here. bought porridge and 2 bottles of herbal tea for my MITANG, she is sick. but she ate abit of porridge only then never eat lerhs. i buy for her derhs herbal tea she dint even take a sip lahs. quite DISAPPOINTED lahs. she whole day never eat then got gastric lerhs i buy for her thing tuh eat yet she dont wanna eat D: haish. cant do anything also lahs. she dont wan eat then leave it luhs. dont wanna force her tuh eat lahs. after that, we slack at my block, and she suddenly ask me smth i found it hard tuh ans. she asked me if i love kq not. then i say not really love lahs, just that i dont wanna hurt her and thought of giving her and myself a chance thats why. after that , i pei her walk tuh th main road and she took th same cab with JONAS x.x
**MI TANG , you must take gd care ok? i noe you are stressed up right now , but just rmb this , my shoulders will always be there for you tuh lean on. and you noe , i still... you have sixth sense right? so i think you noe what i wanna say lahs. call me soon. i wil be waiting , pls dont make me wry or disappointed again. IMISSYOU ~
**BUATOH, im thankful that i have you tuh pei me today. if not i will really be at lost. TY lahs ok. you ask me put a BIG thank you on my blog and i did ok ?! hahas. well, today you very GOOD hor , both tuh me and CINDY. cab here and there with her lehs. some more kip reminding me that she having cough. wahs , not bad ahs. hahas. anw , THANK YOU for today. love you lahs xD heheh ! BUATOH , you must help me hor , that thing. you noe how much "she" mean tuh me and how much i love "her" derhs. THANKS lahs ok?! :DD
shall end my post here lerhs. gonna bath lerhs. just hope that she wil be FINE. take care everyone (:

~ actually i wanted tuh reply you "ok" derhs , but smth just stop me , and its th fact that im attached tuh her now. and i noe its not right tuh do this at this point of time. give me and yourself abit more time bahs? cos you noe it clearly , my heart is still yours.*090908* ~

SCREAMED at Thursday, September 17, 2009

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

MYSELF :D

My BUATOH JONAS and ME ^^

Me and my MEI , CLARA YEO :)

Letter from my ROMANCE :)

Another one from her. LOL.

MY ONE MONTH with HER x333

Very long never upload pic lerhs , these are th latest ones :)

SCREAMED at Wednesday, September 16, 2009

im struggling...

its been ages ever since i updated my blog lerhs. hahahas. cos now finally can change th font lerhs mahs. hahas. hmms, alot of thing happen lahs. hmms, cant really recall everything liaos. =X im currently working at TAMPINES ONE derhs SECRET RECIPE luhs. LOLS. working at there not bad uhs. got alot of bungs derhs colleagues. heh heh. but im only working during th weekends lahs. hehe. exams ard th corner liaos. stressed lahs cans. i have bee dozing off in class these few days. wth ~! i dint mean tuh derhs but i just cant control myself , im too tired lerhs. have been slping late mahs. haish. then working also very tired mahs. but no worries , i gonna buck up liaos. i will try tuh slp earlier liaos. im sry if i disappoint any of my DEAREST teachers. D: i will study hard derhs ! ((:

Well, my romance is still inside , havent come out yet. but she coming out soon liaos, on th 27th which is next sunday. hahas. so long never see her liaos. i wrote 2 letter tuh her but havent pass yet. very hard tuh pass letter in lerhs lahs nowadays. body check very jialat. sianned~ but nvm , she coming out lerhs mahs. hehe.

12o9o9 my MI TANG called me :) happy tuh receive her call lahs. hahas. then ytd i 2pm then end sch , so i went home tuh bath & everything jiu went tuh SGH outside meet AHWYN and my BUATOH JONAS. we send ahywn in SGH lerhs then me and JONAS bus-ed down tuh amk then from AMK train-ed down tuh pioneer tuh meet my MI TANG cindy. :D well , reached pioneer at abt 5plus luhs. then wait for my mitang tuh come tuh MRT station there tuh fetch me and jonas tuh her house luhs. hahas. wahs, its like so damn far from my hse lahs cans ! i stay all th way EAST and she stay all th way WEST =/ but nvm , for her mahs so its ok lahs. LOL. then we went tuh her house slackslack , me and my buatoh at cindy's brother rm play com, then she and wan ting at her rm toktok. wahs, like one bung rm and one gals rm like that siahs. hahas. hmms, then we went over tuh her rm tuh find her. slack awhile then cindy's mom & brother came back lerhs. then her mom brought all of us tuh mac for dinner. so nice of her lahs. hahas. her mom very friendly luhs, how i wish my mom was like her mom luhs. hmms? not bad uhs. lols. after dinner, ME , JONAS , WAN TING & CINDY went tuh buy thing & slack at th bball court while her mom and brother went home first. they all sit down there and slack while i went tuh play one on one with a guy ( idk who lai derhs , but just play only lahs ) luhs. play until sweat all over. then we walked back tuh cindy house , then i went tuh bath luhs. hahas. her towel was like so BIG lahs cans ! LOL ! but anyway , thanks yeahs? much appreciated :D while i was bathing , JONAS tok tuh cindy, IDK what they talked abt lahs. still SECRETS lehs ! chey ! hahas. then slack awhile , play play with her brother , then cindy acc me and jonas tuh th bus stop tuh take bus. but before that , we went tuh jurong point tuh walk walk & enjoy th aircon first. it was damn HOT lahs can ! WTH ! just bath only then sweat again! hate it lahs. so sticky. yucks~ then jonas kip disturbing me and her, trying tuh... hmms, "cuo he" wo men. LOL? how paiseh and awkward lahs ! LOL ! then we walked tuh th interchange tuh wait for our bus. cindy waited with us too. then our bus come lerhs , i gave her a hug and boarded th bus lerhs luhs. so from there, i take bus all th way tuh bedok inter. then change bus 17 home luhs. reached home at abt 12plus am. change and everything then tok tuh cindy on th phone for awhile , jiu go slp lerhs. slept at ard 1 plus. so tired luhs ! Dx but i must say that ytd i was VERY HAPPY , really ENJOYED myself so much ! get tuh play my beloved bball, and also get tuh spend such a great time with "her". UNFORGETTABLE memories !

*Buatoh , thanks for you helping. but i really still dont noe what i should do. yeahs, you are right, what you told me ytd in th bus is right , i noe you understand me inside out derhs, you noe how i felt right? hais~ maybe i need time for myself and for "her" tuh see everything bahs. idk what should i do now D: thanks for being there for me. as for ahwyn , try not tuh put too much love on her first. i dont wanna see you get hurt. whatever it is , i will always be there for you derhs. :)

*sher , im really grateful tuh have you such a fren ! hahahas. i noe you will support me in whatever i do and whatever choice i made. i noe that time you will did that also becos you dont wan me tuh get hurt by "her". anw, over lerhs lahs. and i really appreciate ni derhs hao yi. thanks for always being there for me , DOG FACE COW BODY ! shall meet up soon alright? not i dont wan go find you , is you stay too far lerhs ok? ZHENHUA lehs. you noe how far mahs? sry , we will meet up again soon derhs. :) love you lahs xD

well, im struggling in this love life of mine now. im now with kq , but i feel very GUILTY in this rs. i dint make sure of my own feeling first before i stead with her. i noe its my fault. & now , i dont even noe if i have totally forget "her" lerhs mahs. actually i cant say that i dont noe lahs , i do noe , just that i cant accpt th fact.maybe becos im attached tuh kq now and i really dont wish tuh hurt her? idk. im at lost. my buatoh kip brainwash me , she told me alot of thing and everything she said is right. i noe i still **** "her" derhs and yet i cant say it out. i really dont noe what i should do. i ever told myself that i wont let " love " this kinda thing affect my anything lerhs , but somehow or rather , i allowed "her" tuh affect me so badly. you all must be thinking im MAD or very SHI BAI right? i noe , but i just cant help it. "she" made me weak inside. tuh th extend i nearly lose control of myself. but dont wry , i gonna be strong. i gonna be back on my feet once again. :D shall end here lerhs bahs. take care peeps. shall update again soon :)

*MI TANG , youre having cough so do take gd care of yourself ok? drink more water. dont drink cold drinks too much and rest well :D look forward tuh meeting you again soon and thanks for such a great day.

~ i used tuh tell myself that LOVE/girls cant affect my life , but now you have proven my WRONG ~

SCREAMED at Wednesday, September 16, 2009