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Friday, December 18, 2009

SUNDAY ,
I met my Romance at her house at Woodlands. her sister's baby derhs man yue , so they open buffet at her house. wahs , her house damned crowded mans. NO JOKE ! scary siahs. i met her at her house downstair and her mom seems tuh trust me abit lerhs. she allowed my Romance tuh meet me and tok tuh me on th phone. :D A GOOD START ! ^^ Jonas was with me too. and we slacked at her house downstair for quite a long time. HAPPY siahs. then after that my Romance go up first , left me and Jonas at her house downstair , chatting , and Jonas somehow brain washed me :/ then me and Jonas went tuh eat first while waiting for my Romance tuh be ready. wahs , she took so long tuh bath and everything lahs. i tink got 2 hours mans D: wait like siao. then me and jonas went up tuh her house at abt 4plus gg tuh 5. cos i working at 6. then surprisingly , her mom let me and Jonas in tuh her house and sitsit. FIRST TIME SIAHS ! felt so FORTUNATE lahs cans. bought my future sister in law derhs baby a man yue present , a MILK BOTTLE ! :D cute rights? then passed th present tuh Romance sister. hahas. slacked at Romance house till 5 plus then i really need tuh go lerhs. so me and Jonas went tuh take cab down tuh Tamp. and halfway in th cab , i realised that my uniform is left at my Romance house. so we asked th taxi driver tuh U-turn back tuh my Romance house. and when we reached my Romance house back , th cab fare was $22+. WAHS ! heartpain siahs. i paid for th cab fare , but Jonas said that she will pay me half of it. so its $11. yups. broke lerhs lahs. then went tuh take my things lerhs jiu rushed down tuh work lerhs. reached workplace at abt 7PM. was damned late ! OMG.

GENERALLY ,
this week have been a working week lahs , thats all i can say. except for Wednesday , i OFF. but i went out with Anna tuh Tiong Bahru tuh eat , watch movie, Couples Retreat. quite a FUNNY MOVIE lahs. rating 4stars. more abt romance that kinda movie lahs. not bad. then after th movie , brought her tuh KFC for dinner again. my treats. HEES :D then we bused back tuh Bedok. wahs , it was like damned far lahs cans. 1hour+ derhs journey. and Anna was like slping on my shoulder for almost half th journey. wahs , she damned heavy lahs cans. hand cramp mans. hahahas. =X then she acc me go drink at a park nearby tuh her house . drank 4 big cans of Carlsberg , and i still wasnt really that lost. just feel kinda seh only lahs. then after that , she brought me tuh 7-11 tuh buy cig , and she was like holding on tuh my hands wherever i go , scared i fall down =.= i got so weak mahs? then she came out of th 7-11 with a box of chocolates for me. wow , so sweet ehs? :D she noe i like chocolates. hahahas. we went back tuh th park tuh finish my drinks. after that , she offered tuh send me home , but i delined. instead , i sent her home first. then went home tuh bath and tok on th phone with her. hahahas. after that slp lerhs. wahs. worn out mans !

Thursday ,
worked at 12 till 6 actually , but kena held back by my manager becos it was very crowded. then can only go at 8+pm. wahs , damned sot lerhs. FUCKING tired and HUNGRY ! cos th whole day i dint eat , just work and work ! NO BREAK NOTHING ! CONTINUOUSLY 8 hours of working ! OMG . was damned dulan and i anyhow work. wasnt focused at all. so i finally ended work at 8 plus , then went tuh eat , jiu slacked awhile , then went tuh buy Long John for Anna , cos she ending work at 10 , and she havent eat yet. then bought Long John for her at waited for her tuh end work at SR derhs taxi stand. wait for her until th food also cold lerhs ahs. wahs. ALONE somemore. then Yan came and i dint really tok tuh her lahs. just a hi maybe. then sent Anna home and went tuh drink at my house nearby derhs park alone. quarrelled with my mom. drink till till abt 4plus AM , then finally i went home. and i was quite mabok lerhs. OMG. moabok till idk where and how i got a scratch on my face. LOL. went home bath and slp.

TOday ,
went tuh work at 12 as normal , till 6. then went tuh eat with my colleague Nurul. then after that , went tuh meet up with Anna and pei her drink at TM smoking area. after that pei her tuh buy food for her family then sent her home and here i am , at th lan shop. sians. tmr gonna work at 12 again. so tonight gonna slp early. no more drinking. im going home soon lerhs. shall blog off now. take care peeps. Ciaos !

Maybe what Sher said is true , my heart and feelings is not stable yet. so i shouldnt rush tuh going on back with my Romance first. i should take things slowly. and yeahs , i also think that my heart is not that fixed yet , its still floating in th sea. Ever since Cindy left me, i have never been stable lerhs. but i have been trying very hard tuh be strong and move on lerhs. Right now , idk what i should do. I do very much wanna be with my Romance back , but yet im afraid of getting hurt and hurting her too. becos i cant say i really love her very much , th fact is idk how much i love her. this means that my heart is not stable yet ! i syg Anna still , and i just wanna see her happy , and not hurt when shes with Yan. cos tuh me , she is IMPORTANT in my life. idk how long more she have tuh live , but i just wanna make her happy before she goes, and i wanna pamper her like no one every did before. so that even if ever her day has come for her tuh leave , i cant deny it will be a torture for me , and im gonna burst out , go crazy , lose myself and i will just not be myself , but at least at th very end , i still had our memories with me which i will bring it with me wherever i go, my all my life. for Cindy , i tink i still love her , but its fading lerhs. thats why i tink i should let my heart stable down first then go on with my ROmance.

SCREAMED at Friday, December 18, 2009