hurts after hurts *

Monday, December 28, 2009

Sat,
went tuh work from 6 till 10 plus. then after that i teman Anna tuh her house downstair tuh drink. i never drink. just see her drink niahs. then went home at 2AM. and i quarrelled with my mom. OMG. not again. arghs. irritating lahs ! then went tuh slp aft bathing.

Sun,
i OFF :D but i went down tuh my workplace tuh pass my manager th xmas hat. then shun bian at there do my homework and my favourite American Brownie ! stayed there from 4PM till 10plus PM. hahahas. then sent Anna home. then go home and bath. toked tuh Anna on th phone for awhile and she asked me tuh call Sue. so i called Sue , and hold Anna on th other line. tok tuh Sue halfway and she suddenly cried and burst everything out. she was very low in spirits. and tot of committing suicide. so i tok her ard , toked tuh her on th phone for very long , which means putting Anna on hold for very long too. half an hour if im not wrong. wahs , tired mans. hear her cry i also wan tuh cry. her situation is smth like mine when i was still in love with Cindy. so i roughly can understand how she felt. just that hers was worst than mine. then aft put down th phone with her , i went tuh slp lerhs.

Today ,
i woke up by Anna's call at 1plus PM. she wanted tuh meet me now , with Yan. so i went tuh eat and bath lerhs , she say she otw tuh work lerhs. wtf , everytime also last min wan siahs. but in th end she apologized tuh me lahs. so here i am now , blogging in lerhs luhs. wtf. still tired mans. this morning actually woke up at 9plus AM cos i was coughing very badly non stop , so i cant tahan and i went tuh take some cough syrup and i went back tuh slp. Anna called me wake up lerhs , head was still very heavy and blank. later im gg tuh work at 6. so i tink i better run now. take care everyone.

Romance , i dread for th sch tuh reopen actually , but upon noeing that i could tok tuh you when th sch reopen , i cant wait ! i miss you girl , and i never wanna disappoint you anymore. be good inside and i will wait for you tuh be out. no matter what it takes , what others say , how silly i seem tuh be , I WILL STILL WAIT.

SCREAMED at Monday, December 28, 2009

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Last Sat,
ended work at 11plus and then teman Nikie and Anna tuh drink at Telepark. drank until quite late. after that we cabbed back tuh Anna house. she got off th cab and she merlion blood. OMG. i was so freaked up lahs ! dint noe what tuh do at that point of time. then acc her tuh th void deck cos she was too weak tuh walk. her tummy was aching and she was moaning in pain. OMG. i was so freaked up siahs. Zzz. then sent her home at 5plusAM. went home and bath and slept at 6AM. OMG !

Last Sunday,
So sad that my Romance wasnt out for her outing. her mom dint bring her out. so shagged lahs. T.T then i just send Anna tuh work and shun bian go meet Sher , Maine , Xiaoru & all th SGH girls. we walked ard Tamp1 and we saw Miss Cindy. OMG ! how suey is that ! hahahas. what a SGH day lahs cans. LOL. then, they all wanna go play pool at Safra , while i went tuh acc Anna for her break. then went tuh Queenstown tuh meet Jonas , Jiayuan and Yongliang. we went tuh IKEA. eat , and walk walk. hahahahas. then we kup cab down tuh tamp again. went tuh my workplace tuh eat. i ate th shepherd's pie. quite nice. alot of mashed potatoes. and i felt so full. POTATOES ! thats Her favourite ! hahahas. then slacked outside Tamp1 and Jonas , Jyuan and her bf went off first. left me alone wait for Anna tuh finish work at 10. then sent her back home. OMG. i was dead beat lahs cans. slept for 3 hours only=.= damned TIRED. went home tuh bath and headed straight tuh my lalaland lerhs.

Tuesday,
went tuh meet Jonas and Aubrey at Bugis. then pei them tuh shop for their things. then we went tuh eat at BK. after that we trained down tuh Jurong West tuh find Cindy. it was her bday and i wanna pass her th present :)

Cindy: Happy Birthday yeahs? Birthday girl ! Have a good year older ! dont be so stubborn like how you have been. yao hui xiang yi dian lerhs ok? cannot be like a small girl anymore lerhs. one yr older lerhs lehs. so , DONT STEP CUTE ANYMORE PLEASE!! hahahahas. PEACE ! take care and hope you like th gift i bought for you. :D

then we trained back tuh tamp. was late for work. OMG, not again. went home after work and K.O.

Today,
I off. and early in th morning at 9plus , i was woken up by Anna who asked me tuh go Clementi tuh fetch her. last night she went tuh club. and was drunk so she slept at her godsis house. then reached clementi at bt 12Noon. met up with her and brought her tuh town , actually wanna watch movie derhs , Chipmunks , but she see th crowd then dont wanna watch lerhs. so i brought her tuh eat at KFC and i saw Juliana. wat a small world. she was working there. then toked tuh her for awhile. aft eating , then sent Anna back home and here i am , at th lan shop lerhs. hehehe. later maybe gg back tuh town tuh meet Jyuan and Jonas for movie. they watching th Avatar. ^^ shall blog til here lerhs bahs. take care everyone on earth :D

Romance , i miss you so much. just when will you be out ? i cant wait tuh meet you lahs. i wanna do alot of things with you , i wanna spend alot of time with you. but yet you cant be out. and im left alone out here suffering my days without you. but still , i gonna carry on waiting , and i wont give up so easily. really hope that you will be th right one for me. I miss you syg.

SCREAMED at Thursday, December 24, 2009

Friday, December 18, 2009

SUNDAY ,
I met my Romance at her house at Woodlands. her sister's baby derhs man yue , so they open buffet at her house. wahs , her house damned crowded mans. NO JOKE ! scary siahs. i met her at her house downstair and her mom seems tuh trust me abit lerhs. she allowed my Romance tuh meet me and tok tuh me on th phone. :D A GOOD START ! ^^ Jonas was with me too. and we slacked at her house downstair for quite a long time. HAPPY siahs. then after that my Romance go up first , left me and Jonas at her house downstair , chatting , and Jonas somehow brain washed me :/ then me and Jonas went tuh eat first while waiting for my Romance tuh be ready. wahs , she took so long tuh bath and everything lahs. i tink got 2 hours mans D: wait like siao. then me and jonas went up tuh her house at abt 4plus gg tuh 5. cos i working at 6. then surprisingly , her mom let me and Jonas in tuh her house and sitsit. FIRST TIME SIAHS ! felt so FORTUNATE lahs cans. bought my future sister in law derhs baby a man yue present , a MILK BOTTLE ! :D cute rights? then passed th present tuh Romance sister. hahas. slacked at Romance house till 5 plus then i really need tuh go lerhs. so me and Jonas went tuh take cab down tuh Tamp. and halfway in th cab , i realised that my uniform is left at my Romance house. so we asked th taxi driver tuh U-turn back tuh my Romance house. and when we reached my Romance house back , th cab fare was $22+. WAHS ! heartpain siahs. i paid for th cab fare , but Jonas said that she will pay me half of it. so its $11. yups. broke lerhs lahs. then went tuh take my things lerhs jiu rushed down tuh work lerhs. reached workplace at abt 7PM. was damned late ! OMG.

GENERALLY ,
this week have been a working week lahs , thats all i can say. except for Wednesday , i OFF. but i went out with Anna tuh Tiong Bahru tuh eat , watch movie, Couples Retreat. quite a FUNNY MOVIE lahs. rating 4stars. more abt romance that kinda movie lahs. not bad. then after th movie , brought her tuh KFC for dinner again. my treats. HEES :D then we bused back tuh Bedok. wahs , it was like damned far lahs cans. 1hour+ derhs journey. and Anna was like slping on my shoulder for almost half th journey. wahs , she damned heavy lahs cans. hand cramp mans. hahahas. =X then she acc me go drink at a park nearby tuh her house . drank 4 big cans of Carlsberg , and i still wasnt really that lost. just feel kinda seh only lahs. then after that , she brought me tuh 7-11 tuh buy cig , and she was like holding on tuh my hands wherever i go , scared i fall down =.= i got so weak mahs? then she came out of th 7-11 with a box of chocolates for me. wow , so sweet ehs? :D she noe i like chocolates. hahahas. we went back tuh th park tuh finish my drinks. after that , she offered tuh send me home , but i delined. instead , i sent her home first. then went home tuh bath and tok on th phone with her. hahahas. after that slp lerhs. wahs. worn out mans !

Thursday ,
worked at 12 till 6 actually , but kena held back by my manager becos it was very crowded. then can only go at 8+pm. wahs , damned sot lerhs. FUCKING tired and HUNGRY ! cos th whole day i dint eat , just work and work ! NO BREAK NOTHING ! CONTINUOUSLY 8 hours of working ! OMG . was damned dulan and i anyhow work. wasnt focused at all. so i finally ended work at 8 plus , then went tuh eat , jiu slacked awhile , then went tuh buy Long John for Anna , cos she ending work at 10 , and she havent eat yet. then bought Long John for her at waited for her tuh end work at SR derhs taxi stand. wait for her until th food also cold lerhs ahs. wahs. ALONE somemore. then Yan came and i dint really tok tuh her lahs. just a hi maybe. then sent Anna home and went tuh drink at my house nearby derhs park alone. quarrelled with my mom. drink till till abt 4plus AM , then finally i went home. and i was quite mabok lerhs. OMG. moabok till idk where and how i got a scratch on my face. LOL. went home bath and slp.

TOday ,
went tuh work at 12 as normal , till 6. then went tuh eat with my colleague Nurul. then after that , went tuh meet up with Anna and pei her drink at TM smoking area. after that pei her tuh buy food for her family then sent her home and here i am , at th lan shop. sians. tmr gonna work at 12 again. so tonight gonna slp early. no more drinking. im going home soon lerhs. shall blog off now. take care peeps. Ciaos !

Maybe what Sher said is true , my heart and feelings is not stable yet. so i shouldnt rush tuh going on back with my Romance first. i should take things slowly. and yeahs , i also think that my heart is not that fixed yet , its still floating in th sea. Ever since Cindy left me, i have never been stable lerhs. but i have been trying very hard tuh be strong and move on lerhs. Right now , idk what i should do. I do very much wanna be with my Romance back , but yet im afraid of getting hurt and hurting her too. becos i cant say i really love her very much , th fact is idk how much i love her. this means that my heart is not stable yet ! i syg Anna still , and i just wanna see her happy , and not hurt when shes with Yan. cos tuh me , she is IMPORTANT in my life. idk how long more she have tuh live , but i just wanna make her happy before she goes, and i wanna pamper her like no one every did before. so that even if ever her day has come for her tuh leave , i cant deny it will be a torture for me , and im gonna burst out , go crazy , lose myself and i will just not be myself , but at least at th very end , i still had our memories with me which i will bring it with me wherever i go, my all my life. for Cindy , i tink i still love her , but its fading lerhs. thats why i tink i should let my heart stable down first then go on with my ROmance.

SCREAMED at Friday, December 18, 2009

Friday, December 11, 2009

Ytd ,
went tuh work at 12 till 6. then after tat pei Anna go Bedok Reservoir tuh cut her hair. then we slacked and fagged, and i brought her tuh Mac tuh grab a bite. MY TREATS. hahahas.then sent her home at 11 plus. then i go home myself lerhs. reached home talked tuh Anna on th phone while bathing. hahahas. after she put down , Jonas called me up and me and her toked on th phone till abt 4AM. so long never tok tuh her lerhs. hahahas. then went tuh slp.

Today,
went tuh work at 12 as usual. till 6 , then went tuh cut hair , AGAIN , at Bedok Reservoir with Anna. she pei me go cut hair. :D then after that , we went tuh a park and slacked again.she quarrelled with Yan , and she cried. for th FIRST time , i saw her cry. felt like crying too derhs. but i told myself that i cant show her th weaker side of myself. and she was very weak at that point of time , so she need someone stronger tuh be with her. and im th someone. i sat right beside her and tried tuh console her. but i noe , nth helps. i cant do anything also , beside offering her my shoulder for her tuh cry on. sighs. then i sent her back home. after she went off , then i realised that her jacket is still with me. lol. then i kip her jacket first luhs. th next time i see her then i return her back bahs. :D her jacket smell of her , so nice smell. :D and her i am , blogging in again ^^ till here , take care everyone , EXCEPT FOR SERINA & KEVIN & WHOEVER2 lahs.

TO PASSER and that FAKE "Emerson" on my tagboard:
Please lahs ehs. stop wasting ur time trying tuh spam and spam. you tink my frens stupid ahs? they noe im NOT th one who ask them tuh fuck off and scold them ugly derhs lahs. come on mans. you dont need ACT as if you noe me and th rs btwn me and my frens. so you fucking don even tink of SPOILING th rs btwn me and my frens. its NOT GONNA WORK ! get this CLEAR into your bloody BRAIN. YOU NBCB ! i dont care who th fuck are you , you not happy , just dui wo lai. DONT BE JEALOUS THAT I HAVE MORE FRENS THAN YOU AND FRENS THAT WILL BE THERE FOR ME. even if my frens dont help me , i can handle myself. IF YOU WANT , YOU CAN ALWAYS GIVE ME A CALL , I CAN ALWAYS PLAY ALONG WITH YOU DERHS. TAKE ME ON IF YOU ARE A HUMAN WITH BRAIN. YOU BLOODY USELESS WEAKLING AND PATHETIC LONER WITH NO FRENS. FANCY YOU TRYING TUH ACT ME AND TAG IN MY TAGBOARD. OMG , DONT POLLUTE MY NAME MANS. YOU ARE NOT UP TUH IT TUH BE EMERSON LAHS OKAYS, COS IM TH ONLY EMERSON IN THIS BLOG. SO YOU JOLLY WELL NOE WHO ARE YOU AND DONT HAVE TUH WASTE YOUR BLOODY DOG TIME HERE BARKING AND DRAMA-ING. DISLIKE ME ? THEN YOU DONT HAVE TUH ENTERTAIN ME DERHS. I'M NOT LACK OF FRENS , OR RATHER , I DONT FANCY PPL LIKE YOU. SO YOU CAN XIU XIANG YAO TIAO BO LI JIAN. LISTEN UP DOG , ITS NOT GONNA WORK. COS MY FRENS NOE ME WELL , AT LEAST BETTER THAN YOU DO. SO DONT MACAM FAHAM. THICK SKINNED DOG. FUCK YOUR MOM AND YOUR BLOODY DOG FAMILY. MOTHERLESS BITCH !

To ALL MY FRENS and READERS:
I'm glad that you all noe me well, and trust me enough that im not that kinda person. thanks guys ! you noe who you are :D so DONT LET THAT SPAMMER SPOIL OUR FRENSHIP OK? LET THAT DOG SEE THAT WE ARE BEYOND ITS EXPECTATION. TUH PREVENT MORE MISUNDERSTANDING , I WONT TAG ANYMORE AT MY BLOG DERHS TAGBOARD. INSTEAD , I WILL REPLY TH TAGS THROUGH MY POST.

Romance , 1 more day ! i cant wait lahs! i miss you so muchhhh ! you are my one and only. no matter what happen , i will be with you. you are my love , my fate. and i wont let you go anymore. i never wanna say goodbye , not anymore.

SCREAMED at Friday, December 11, 2009

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Today ,
i OFF. but i dint really go out lahs. basically was just staying at home for th whole day , slp n eat n slp n eat. thats all i did. until 4plus PM , then went tuh bath and went tuh gym at Tamp. aft that , went home at 8plus. then reach home tuh put my things down lerhs , jiu went down tuh eat. after that here i am , blogging in lerhs. Ytd dint get th chance tuh blog in , aiyahs also dont what tuh blog in lahs. nothing unusual happen mahs. toked tuh Sher th whole night and went tuh slp at 3plus coming tuh 4 in th morning. woahs , stiming mans. 2 more days tuh my Romance HL. cant wait siahs. OMG , miss her so much. last night still dreamt of her. a funny dream lahs. LOL. now my muscle is aching lerhs. OMG. have been carrying weight for abt 1 1/2 hours. woahs , now my muscle swollen till so big mans. carried th 6kg dumbell. not really heavy lahs but just tiring cos kip carrying mahs. felt so noob at th gym cos it was my first time gg tuh Tamp derhs gym and everything is like so MO SHEN tuh me lahs. LOL. cos th previous time i go gym was with Cindy , Jonas and Ahwyn at Cindy's uncle house. that time i still pei her swim mans. hahahs. i very touching rights? hahahas. tyty. MEMORIES mans. OMG. miss those times lahs. sighs. tmr i working at 12. Zzz. sians. hopefully i can end work early bahs. TIRED lahs. i slept for almost th whole day lerhs yet im still tired. hahahas. dont noe whats wrong with my body. arghs. shall blog off lerhs lahs. tmr gotta wake up early. take care peeps. byes :D

Romance :
2 more days and im counting on for you. I miss you so much mans !!! till i even dreamt of you last night. you gotta be good inside ok? and take care of yourself , must eat properly ok? I LOVE YOU ^^

Ytd you told me that you and Him nothing lerhs. and i was so happy tuh hear that actually. but i dint show it out. i dont noe why i will feel this way , perhaps , im already use tuh feeling this way when things like this happen lerhs bahs. pls God , tell me this is just a habit , and i dont love her anymore. Even if i do , i wont let history repeat itself anymore. im just gonna close my eyes tightly and let it pass, and im gonna tell myself , " I HAVE MOVED ON WITH MY ROMANCE , SO HAVE SHE. "

TO PASSER :
what Sher said is right. you dont have tuh noe abt my life , if you dont wish tuh let me noe who are you. I noe you are someone who i noe , and who noe me. but i really cant figure out why you can be so interested whats A-Y and yet so scared tuh let me , or rather any reader of my blog , noe who on earth are you. play games behind th com got what STIM siahs? ZHI SHUANG ahs? Laugh My Ass Off. If you are really so interested abt A-Y , PUT YOUR BLOODY BIG NAME DOWN. otherwise , you are not welcome here. cos my blog is only meant for ppl who noes how tuh respect their own names tuh read. towards ppl like you , is UNWANTED HERE. so fucking you just FUCK OFF, if you dont wish tuh co-operate with ME , th owner of this blog. Thank you. anything not towards your liking , just put your name/number down. i will get tuh you ASAP.

SCREAMED at Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Monday, December 7, 2009

Today ,
Went tuh work as usual at 12 PM. then worked till 6PM. aft work went tuh eat and went tuh library tuh write letter tuh my Romance. hahahas. miss her mans. This sat she will be out lerhs. cant wait mans. hahahas. then bused back tuh Bedok tuh find Yan. MY darling. hahahahas. sound GAY? hahahas. whatever lahs , thats bwtn me and my DARLING :D hahahahs. and here we are , blogging in. today whole day at Cake , sians Zzz. stress pe? then they say i very quiet when at cake. hahahas. of cos lahs , dont noe what tuh say also mahs. Nikie and Anna not there. so boring. leave me alone there tuh work. Zzz. msg Cindy while i was working. and thats abt it lahs. tmr working at 6PM. finally got th time tuh have a gd rest. damn tired....... okays lahs , blogging off now. take care peeps. byes.

I'm still waiting for you tuh be out my Romance. I miss you so.

Because of you , its so difficult for me tuh love someone th way i loved you. my heart can never love anyone else th way i loved you. Because of you , I'm afraid that hurts will strike me any time. seeing you move on , seeing you love Him , i didnt really feel that good , but at least this time i noe , that your life is happier. you have moved on , and so did i. but i really dont noe whether will i have th courage tuh congrat you if i see you with Him on th streets one day. Yes, everything is in th past lerhs , but i take those memories as Living Memories that can never get out of my heart.

SCREAMED at Monday, December 07, 2009

These are th pics that i long ago wanted tuh put in blog but never had th chance tuh. they are not just pics , they contains memories wan hor ! sighs.

SCREAMED at Monday, December 07, 2009

Friday,
after work went tuh eat with my colleagues at mac. then lepak with Nikie at TM. then meet up with Yan & Anna. Then we sent Anna back home. Then went home lerhs luhs.

Saturday,
i OFF. woke up at 12. then went tuh prepare & met Yan at Bedok inter. then teman her tuh Hougang tuh take her things. then we bused back tuh Bedok, Meibao's house , tuh put Yan's thing. then went tuh eat at Meibao's house nearby derhs coffeeshop. aft that we bused down Clarke Quay cos Yan wanna go collect her pay. walked ard Clarke Quay with her and we saw so many hot chicks! woah! got th temptation tuh club mans ! then aft taking her pay , we trained tuh tam tuh meet up with Anna and Mirah. Slacked awhile then me , Yan & Anna bused home lerhs. i sent Anna home and i went home lerhs. whole day was with Yan , & long hours on th bus. Zzz. but we took lots of crazy photos. hahahas. too bored on th bus lerhs. hahahas, & we cracked alot of dirty jokes too. Omg , i want tuh.... but my romance not out yet:( gonna wait for her tuh be out. miss her mans. sighs.

Sunday,
woke up at 11AM. was not feeling well, having headache and bad cough, and flu too. took th flu medicine and then went tuh work. wahs , damn STIM mans. seh siahs. went tuh work at 12plus PM. until 10plus PM. wahs , tiring mans. then slack with Anna and Nikie at TM till 11plus PM then went home lerhs. and here i am. hahahas. gonna make a move tuh upload pic lerhs. tmr i gg tuh work at 12 again. sians. take care peeps. byes !

SCREAMED at Monday, December 07, 2009

Friday, December 4, 2009

it has been so long ever since i updated. lots of things happened durong th days when i wasnt online tuh update my pathetic blog. have been working basically for th past week. and have been toking tuh Cindy on th phone till late at nights. ended up always slp at 4 plus AM. tried mans. Zzz. me and Shalini has stopped contacting also lerhs. but some funny incidents still happened btwn me and her. hahahas. ytd went tuh meet Kat and Jonas at CGH, then went tuh eat then we pei Kat go collect her pay at Novena. then Kat treated us eat i/c siahs. so nice of her. hahahahas. thanks wor. love you many many ^^
then we went tuh find Serina at Plaza Sing. she was with Kevin and all. and Kevin's neck got love bite siahs. but Kevin dont have girlf now so i tink Serina is th one who gave Kevin th lovebite on her neck. and Kevin kissed Serina infront of me siahs ! wtf , Serina was my girlf at that point of time siahs.

To Kevin : cb , dont noe how tuh respect ppl derhs is it? knn, fuck your ass you bloody butcher. I've always respected you and this is what you give me? kissing my girlf infront of me? i never give you on your face is already very good lerhs hor. you this butcher , since you love Serina, th clump of OIL , so much , go ahead with her. fancy you picking up thrash ( SERINA ) that i throw away. you no dignity derhs ahs? disgrace tuh th bungs. pathetic butcher. you jolly well noe i was with her and you still did all those with her. where is your respect for me? so since you have not respected me , so dont you fucking blame me for being so nasty and mean with my words tuh you right now. yahs you can kiss any girl you like but NOT SOMEONE'S ELSE GIRLF ! this logic you also dont noe , need a 17 yrs old bung tuh teach you this 26yrs OLD bung? come on lahs. you need serina so much , i give this clump of OIL tuh you now. enjoy sucking her OIL every night bahs. she also very horny derhs , so enjoy your nights with that clump of OIL bahs. im sry tuh say that SERINA'S pussy has already been made loose by my powerful fingers and skills. so sad that you have tuh kio my sai. but be careful , dont tear her skin and flood th whole Singpore with OIL , cos there are alot of innocent souls out there. Thank you. Anything you not sua with me derhs , dont you fucking hesitate tuh give me a call any time. my number is with that clump of OIL , Serina. i will be waiting for your call , disgusting butcher.

ytd had a tok with them. Kevin , Serina , Katherine , Jonas , Serina's sister and myself. things turned out tuh be very sucky. then went tuh work aft that. tok tuh Serina on th phone and she made me so sot with her that i shouted at her on th phone , when i was at th Male toilet at that point of time. what th shit rights. SLUT is what she acts tuh be. but given her looks and ability , she cant even qualify as a SLUT. cos SLUTS definitely have looks and FIGURE ! she? OMG , BUANG lahs siahs ! disgrace tuh women. bung not like bung , girl not like girl. labeless loser. worked till 10 plus then went home. toked tuh Sher on th phone and told her th whole incident abt me and Serina. hahahas. then gossip here and there. hahahs. after toking tuh Sher , then tok tuh Cindy on th phone. tok till 3plus AM. then went tuh slp. now im gg tuh work lerhs. working at 6PM till 10PM. take care peeps. shall update again soon.

PS: 1 more week tuh my Romance's HL , i miss her mans. cant wait tuh see her. arghs ! :D

SCREAMED at Friday, December 04, 2009