hurts after hurts *

Friday, July 31, 2009

hellos. today im OFFICIALLY DISCHARGED from SGH lerhs. sad=((( haish.i dont wanna DC lahs. really cant bear tuh leave SGH mans. felt like crying mans. but i just cant cry out. today morning woke up at 8am, during muster time. then went tuh brush teeth, jiu go down muster lerhs. haish. then i packed my thing , get ready tuh discharge. ahwyn and teck ping pei me slp last nite. my LAST nite there. so they pei me slp. so nice of them rite? hahas. miss them lahs. so i spend time with ahwyn all th way till th staff airphone me and tell me tat my mom come lerhs, then i leave lerhs luhs. but before i leave , i gave everyone there a hug , and a kiss on ahwyn face , i was even silly till i said "byebye" tuh my bed , th toilet , th TV , table , etc , cos i really cant bear tuh leave coral 2 lahs. :((( so sad luhs. haish. then this morning i shouted tuh my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) for th last time too. she cried ytd , cos im discharging lerhs. she cant bear tuh leave me , and so am i , cant bear tuh leave her too. i will wait for her derhs. and im waiting for her too. hahas. miss her lahs. :( and i tink she misses me too :) hope she can faster come out and meet me up lahs. she better dont hong inside ahs. if not i kill her mans. hahas. no lahs. IF she hong , thats it between me and her mans. but i trust her that she wnt derhs lahs.

then today reached home at 12 plus. went tuh pack my things , tidy up my house , and then bath lerhs , jiu go meet my LOVER , kat at bedok :) met her and valerie. then slack down there , tok cock , make dirty jokes. hahas. fun lahs. then dad went tuh drive me back home. Ms Susan came tuh my house just tuh return me my pocket money. she forget tuh pass tuh me this morning. lols. so after taking my pocket money from her , then i went tuh eat with my family. so i reached home at abt 11pm luhs. go bath lerhs , call my BAOBEI awhile , jiu come and update lerhs. haish. i miss SGH lahs. i dont wanna DC lahs. can i go back? if can , i cfm will derhs luhs. living at ouside world so BU XI GUAN luhs. i wan go back lahs DX haish. i miss ahwyn and co lahs. miss my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) too :( haish. wonder they this time slp lerhs mahs? cfm havent derh uhs? cos AEPHIX today last day there. tmr she gg tuh THL lerhs. she happy lahs she. hahas. then ahwyn cfm now spending th last night with her derhs luhs. hahas. hope all th best for AEPHIX bahs. okays lahs. tmr still have tuh go sch. shall end my post here lerhs bahs. take care peeps. byes :)

- i miss my ROMANCE , SC2 , and ... whoever whoever lahs. -

SCREAMED at Friday, July 31, 2009

Sunday, July 26, 2009

I MISS YOU ROMANCE

hellos :) today morning i was woken up by my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) derhs call at 9plus am. hahas. so happy tuh hear her voice :)) then tok tuh her on th phone for abt 5 mins , i told her i wanna call cos i dont have free incoming. she say ok. so i call her , her mom picked up and ask me not tuh call her daughter. then i say ok luhs. after that i called her mom again and tok tuh her mom nicely , ask her why she dont allow me tuh tok tuh her KUAN QI , then her mom say that KUAN QI's caseworker dont let her use th phone or go out. wahs, shag lahs can. so nvm , i asked sher if wanna meet up not , she say meet at CCK with ahwyn also. so i went tuh bath luhs. when i finished bathing , sher sms me say that she dont tink can meet lerhs. so nvm , i called my BUATOH and ask her wan tuh meet not cos she gg TAM mahs. then i went out at 1plus tuh meet her at TAM luhs.

from TAM , we took shuttle bus tuh IKEA becos my BUATOH fren wanna buy something. then my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) called me again. SO HAPPY luhs. hahas. i told her i wanna meet her , but she say that her mom dont let her out. then i told her i will go her house there tuh find her. so i asked her where she stay luhs. she told me th block but dint tell me her unit number. i forget tuh ask her also lahs. some more i cant call her house tuh ask for her and she also no HP. wth. then after we put down th phone, we went in IKEA luhs and start shopping for th thing that my BUATOH fren wanna buy luhs. wahs, her fren like small kid siahs. kip playing hide and seek with us , th two bungs. hahas. tiring luhs , chase after that 2 ladies. running around th ENORMOUS IKEA like small kids playing hide and seek siahs. hahas. *PAISEH* LOLS. after tat , we left IKEA at 3plus.

then took shuttle bus tuh BEDOK MRT and then trained down tuh WOODLANDS tuh find my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ). from BEDOK tuh WOODLANDS , you noe how FAR mahs? but for th sake of my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) i just go only luhs. luckily got my BUTAOH tuh accompany me go ahs. if not i alone take 1 hour plus derhs train ituh WOODLANDS can die of BOREDOM mans. hahas. my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) not everytime come out also mahs. so must take th chance tuh meet her since she is out. hahas. reached WOODLANDS at 5pm sharp. hahas. then i dont noe how tuh go tuh her block from WOODLANDS MRT so me and my BUATOH took cab there luhs. her block quite near WOODLANDS MRT lahs. reached her block only 4 bucks niahs lahs. so i pay alone luhs. hahas. i was not that cfm that i will see until my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) actually cos i dont noe hwe unit num and i cant call her but i just tried my luck go her house downstair and see if she will come down not. then when i reached her house downstair , i saw her walking back home. so surprised luhs. so COINCIDENTIAL luhs. heh heh :) so i went over tuh call her luhs. she so shy tuh see me tat she hid behind th pillar. dont dare see me. hahas !!! then i tok tuh her under her block. with my BUATOH there tuh pei me too. hahas. so kind of her. hahas. then i toked tuh her luhs. she kip saying things that made me pissed off. she say my feeling for her like not right like that. then she also say that CASS still love me , cried for me , etc. wth. what has it got tuh do with me ? haish. i also never do anything mahs. CASS was th one who wanna break derhs mahs. she kip asking me how abt my MI TANG ( cindy ). cos my MI TANG seems tuh love me still. she also say that she kena condemned by th gals inside just becos she with me , ppl say that she snatch me away. OMG , why th bitches inside so STUPID derhs ahs? ** WHOEVER TH FUCK CONDEMNED/SAY MY KUAN QI BECOS SHE WITH ME , YOU ALL BETTER STOP IT ! DONT LET ME NOE WHO TH FUCK YOU ALL ARE MANS. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS , AND DONT MESS WITH ME AND KUAN QI AFFAIR COS YOU ARE IN NO POSITION TUH DO SO. GET IT? ! ANYTHING STILL NOT SUA , COME AND FIND ME ONLY. I WAIT FOR YOU , BITCH(ES) ! nbcb , masuk campur luhs ! hate it mans. KPOs ! yucks ! then MY ROMANCE (KUAN QI ) also say that if i can wait for her after i DC , then good luhs. but if i CANT , she wanna go jump down from th building. SIAO derhs lehs ! wth ! i wont let her do that derhs luhs. i will wait for her derhs. she say she scared tuh lose me. so am i. i also scared tuh lose her or get hurt by her. as i say lerhs , i have started tuh put HOPES , TRUST and LOVE on her lerhs. i tink she dont feel secured with me bahs. nvm , i will prove tuh her that i can wait for her derhs. but she better be TIONG XIM tuh me ahs. IF let me noe that she inside like other bung , or GATAL with anyone , thats it btwn me and her mans. i will also be TIONG XIM tuh her at outside derhs. i'll be waiting for her tuh come out for every of her outing derhs. and i will try tuh meet her when she is out derhs. i believe i can do it derhs. :)) she told me tat she quarrelled with her mom becos of me. she told her mom abt me and her lerhs. walaos, she also one gong gong derhs lehs. tell her mom abt us for what? her mom cfm wil DISAPPROVE derhs mahs. haish. feel so bad tuh make her and her mom quarrel becos of me :((( haish. then suddenly her dad came down and saw us toking. and i was holding her hands at that point of time too. but i dont noe if her dad saw not. hope not bahs. then th moment she saw her dad , she quickly let go of my hand. shocked siahs. after tat she went home with her dad luhs. i tink becos of me , she get scolding from her dad too. wahs, ROMANCE , im SORRY tuh make you and your parents quarrel ! haish. im REALLY SORRY :((( after she went up , left me and my BUATOH at her house downstairs there. then me and my BUATOH tok tok at there luhs, cos my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) going back tuh SGH lerhs and i wanna wait for her tuh come down again. i wanna see her for th last time before she go back tuh SGH. then we waited till 6:28pm , she still havent come down , so me and my BUATOH went up tuh her house tuh find out which unit she stay. i can recognise her slipper mahs. so easy for me tuh find out which unit she stay. then i heard my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) derhs dad's voice at th lift there , so i hid behind th pillar , and ask my BUATOH tuh double cfm whether is it really her dad not. and as i have guessed , it was her and her dad and they are going back tuh SGH lerhs. so i rushed down th stairs tuh see her. luckily i managed tuh see her. then i CHUIT at her , and she turned. so i waved tuh her and she waved back. then i see her get in her dad's lorry and see th lorry turn its way out. after that i run tuh th main road there and i waved at her again. i dont noe if she got see not , but i tink got see bahs. :) after that me and my BUATOH went off lerhs luhs. we trained down tuh redhill becos my BUATOH wanna go find her mom. then i pei my BUATOH wait for her mom tuh come.

after that i went back home lerhs luhs. reached home at 9pm. went tuh bath and here i am lerhs luhs. sianned. tmr going tuh sch lerhs. have tuh wake up early in th morning. shagged lahs. 4 more days tuh go tuh DC :((( cant bear tuh leave SGH luhs. gonna miss those ppl there mans. ESP my ROMANCE ( KUAN QI ) and my MI TANG ( cindy ). and of cos my dearest SC2 :((( okays lahs. i shall end here lerhs. take care peeps. I MISS MY ROMANCE , KOH KUAN QI !!!

SCREAMED at Sunday, July 26, 2009

hellos. im here tuh update liaos. hahas. i have just edited pics of my ROMANCE and me :) spent th whole afternoon editing. tiring luhs. so she better treasure it mans. my efforts okays. hahas. then evening 6 plus i went tuh play bball luhs. play till 9 plus like that luhs. tired mans DX then come back lerhs, bath , wait for staff's call. after staff call, then on th com , go frenster write comment for my ROMANCE. then came here tuh update lerhs luhs. hahas. im currently waiting for my romance tuh come out in th morning. hahas. wanna meet her lahs ! XD miss her lahs.

haish. noe smth, i suddenly miss my MI TANG :( haish. thinking of her make me wanna cry. even after me and my ROMANCE attached lerhs, i often still ask myself , do i still love my MI TANG? have i really forget her lerhs? have i really given up on her? actually i jolly well noe th ans , just that i couldnt make myself believe it and accpt it. haish. i dont noe lahs. im confused. why must she only tell me all that NOW ??? haish. her words led me into confusions once again. haish. i have been trying hard tuh get her out of my heart, but i later came tuh realise that i cant do it. arghs !

at th same time , i am also starting tuh put hope , trust , and feeling on this RS with my ROMANCE. what should i do? haish. i will do anything not tuh get myself hurt th way i was once again. haish. STRESSED lahs. T.T shallend here lerhs lahs. tired lerhs. wanna go slp , recharge battery for tmr , my ROMANCE's call ! :)) take care peeps. byes :D

SCREAMED at Sunday, July 26, 2009

Saturday, July 25, 2009

hellos. im out liaos. i just reached home not long only lahs. so came tuh update lerhs luhs. hahas. monday i went tuh sch, and my form teacher is not around. so have tuh get my DM tuh help me sign my book luhs. wahs , how irritating is she. she catch my hair , my my skirt, my socks. whatever can catch she also wan tuh catch lahs. nbcb. IHATEHER mans. then she write inside my book tat i avoid her nowadays. only noe tuh complain niahs. avoid also no wrong mahs. her prob lahs. i fuck care lahs. im left with 5 days niahs lehs. SCARED. cant bear tuh leave SGH and those ppl there. LOVE them lahs D: this week my last homeleave liaos. FAST hor? haish. SCARY luhs. can dont so fast dc not? :( this week i only go sch 2 days niahs. cos i sick then th doctor kip giving me MC. hahas. siao derhs luhs. 3 days MC lehs. hahas. noe what? im attached lerhs :) guess whos my GF? her name is KOH KUAN QI !! hahas. ytd just attached tuh her derhs. hahas. ytd th whole block very noisy luhs. AESLYN and JOJACK attached. then i also wan tuh join in th fun, so i sound my ROMANCE luhs. hahas. she ask me if i will cheat her feelings not. she dont trust me? hahas. i also dont trust myself lahs actually. hahas. but hopefully i will love her as much as she love me one day bahs? recently i just fall in love with her SMILES :) she look so CUTE when she SMILE luhs. hahs. i simply love tuh see her SMILE !!! she also got ask me abt my MI TANG (cindy) , but i dont noe lahs. haish. she say that she can tell that i still love my MI TANG. but i also dont noe lahs. dont wish tuh think abt it. make me wanna cry. :( i wanna start afresh. dont wanna get stuck in a RS that hurted me so much. although now i cant say that i really LOVE my romance , but can say im starting tuh put hopes , trust and love on her lerhs luhs. starting only lahs. but still im SCARED , tuh be hurt again. havign PHOBIA liaos. been hurt too many times lerhs. i wonder if my choice is a right one mahs? is it unfair tuh KUAN QI ? cos i have not even make sure that my feelings for my MI TANG no more liaos yet. then i sound her. is it a little too fast?why am i having such thoughts at this point of time? im really so afraid of REGRETS luhs. i dont wanna regret what i do , and who i choose tuh be with. KUAN QI told me that my MI TANG still love me alot derhs. but who should i believe? who should i put my trust on derhs? KUAN QI says she love me alot too , CINDY also say she still love me. who is STMF-ing and who is NOT ??? who is TRUE and who is not? i really dont noe. if my MI TANG really love me derhs hua, she will try all ways tuh win my heart back tuh her side derhs. and i think th only way tuh make me go back tuh her is tuh PROVE tuh me that she is SERIOUS and WONT hurt me anymore. lets see bahs? haish. did i make th right choice this time round? haish. and i hope SHE could be th one who can prove it tuh me. can she make it??? haish. tmr going out with ROMANCE. wanna bring her out tuh movie. hahas. and see how tuh feelings goes bahs? i miss my ROMANCE , and not forgetting my MI TANG too. i have never forget abt my MI TANG before luhs.

abt my BIE , i heard that she still love her RAHSIA. as i have guessed lerhs. she go back tuh admission , she cfm will like her RAHSIA derhs luhs. that BLACK DOG. ANGRY siahs :(((((( she told me that she love me all that, so many SWEET TALKS, fuck shit mans. and now , whats happening? all that she told me are just a bunch of useless LIES !! STMF ~! i hate it mans !!!! arghhhhs !!! sot siahs aku ! kepala butol ! whats so great abt that black DOG siahs? fancy me losing my EX tuh that black dog? i lose tuh a BLACK KELENG bung? wahs , like that means im worst than a BLACK BUNG? cb, th more i tok abt it , th more dulan luhs. i where lose tuh that BLACK KELENG BUNG? fuck shit mans. and that BLACKIE see me still got th cheek tuh stare at me ahs? nb, dier mane peh besar sial , butol. puki mak dier ahs sials. BODOH punye HITAM. kalau tak puas , sini ahs sial. aku tunggu ahs sials. tak ade bapa ahs si hitam tu. wanna step one man, i think i also more man than her luhs. wahpiang. STEP POWER ONLY. PLEASE lahs , GET A LIFE MANS !!!!! BIE, kemana kau menghilangkan diri mu? manakah janji dan sumpah setia mu yg kau berikan kepada ku? apakah kesalahan ku padamu? send lagu - hanya kau yang mampu & kemana kau menghilangkan diri . i masih rindu you. shall end my update here lerhs bahs. im looking forward tuh meeting my ROMANCE tmr. cant wait tuh see her mans. :) take care peeps. byes :)

SCREAMED at Saturday, July 25, 2009

Sunday, July 19, 2009

hellos. im here tuh update lerhs. hahas. just now went tuh play bball. play till 4 plus then went home tuh bath. after that we went tuh GEYLANG derhs NO SIGNBOARD restaurant tuh eat luhs. hahas. eat til damn full mans. but i dint eat much rice lahs. scared mans. i dont wanna put on weight. am currently on diet plan , rmb? hahas. NEVER GIVE UP mans. :) *macam faham je* hahas. my whole family sing bday song for my bro. damn paiseh siahs. there so many ppl. wth. then cut cake. hahas. but dint take any pics lahs. cos my hp damn lag. wtf. upgrading tuh new phone soon. hahas. then my mom drove me back luhs. went tuh cut my hair. hehes :) cut till quite short lahs. dont noe how tuh face SGH staff mans. i asked tuh hairdresser not tuh cut th "V" until too obvious lerhs. but i see like very obvious like that lehs. aiyahs , fuck care lerhs lahs. i also discharging soon lerhs. so what th fuck i care? hahahas. and now , im blogging in lerhs luhs. just finished ironing my uniform. hahas. today gonna slp early mans. after staff call , i will call XIAOYUAN , as i have promised her i wil call her. hahas. dont wanna tua her. hahas. after calling her , i will go slp lerhs luhs. *Zzz* hahas. feeling quite slpy lerhs. hahas. tmr going tuh sch. have tuh wake up early. sianned. after sch gonna return back tuh SGH again luhs. hahas. gonna shout tuh my MI TANG(cindy) , my ROMANCE(K.Q) and my BIE :))) miss them tons mans. okays lahs. i guess i shall end here lerhs bahs. take care peeps. i shall update again when i can bahs. buhbyes :D

SCREAMED at Sunday, July 19, 2009

hellos. im here tuh update again lerhs. hahas. ytd went tuh play bball. from 4 plus play until 9 plus. hahas. tired mans XD hahas. then went home tuh bath , half way through, SGH staff called. so i simply wrapped myself in a towel and rush out tuh ans her call. water dripping from my body mans. hahas. =X after that my mom call me and ask me tuh come down , she wanna bring me tuh GEYLANG tuh see prost , and tuh kip a lookout for my dad. my dad MIA mahs. hahas. lame luhs. so old lerhs , still wanna play this kinda teenage game , MIA? wth ! hahahs. after that i reached home at abt 2am like tat luhs. lols. i was beat ! so i just slp only luhs. slp until 11 plus luhs. then went tuh write comment for my ROMANCE ( K.Q ). and also write her fs msg too. hahas. wrote a long msg tuh her though. hahas. WU XIM rite me? hahas. =X hahas. so now here i am , blogging luhs. hahas. today is my bro derhs bday. later gonna go and collect bday cake for my bro. hahas. yeahs :) then later my dad will be coming tuh bring us tuh restaurant tuh eat out dinner luhs. hahas. ok lahs. i gtg lerhs. wanna go collect th bday cake lerhs. if not th shop gonna close soon. takecare peeps. will update again soon. byes :)

SCREAMED at Sunday, July 19, 2009

Saturday, July 18, 2009

hellos. im here tuh update again lerhs. hahas. i just came back luhs. hahas. just now went tuh see doctor then you noe who i saw? i saw my BIE !!!!! hahas. damn happy siahs. hahas. then i tok tuh her luhs. hahas. miss her so much siahs. i got letter for her but couldnt pass her. mak usha on duty lehs. wan die ahs? hahas. seriously , now im damn confused.. i just received letter from K.Q. she told me alot of things lahs. basically , SWEET TALKS. yeahs. but i dont noe if she mean it not. then i also received my MI TANG (cindy) letter. she write until like she wanna patch with me like that. her letter was QUITE touching lahs. well, i nearly cried while reading but... haish. i dont noe lahs. everyone seems tuh be asking me who i love.. but th fact is that i also DONT NOE !!! STRESSED lahs cans DX a part of me wan my MI TANG back , a part of me wan tuh try out with K.Q , a part of me is longing tuh see my BIE.im now stucked in btwn my MI TANG , K.Q and my BIE. so what should i do? i really dont noe lahs. :(( im sry if i happen tuh hurt anyone. i dint mean it though. but im hurt too !

i wan tuh be with my MI TANG back , BUT im SCARED tuh be hurt by her again. i really had enuf of hurts from HER lerhs. really !!! i cant deny that im touched by her letter but... i dont noe lahs. haish. ! wait till she come out lerhs then say lahs. she say she miss me and all. but i dont noe if i should believe her not. ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY. she ask me if i still love her , i dont noe also lahs. yeahs i always think of her , miss her , wanting tuh go back tuh th past and all..but.. in my heart , there is still this fear existing. i dont noe how tuh describe it lahs. but i noe its just there.

as for K.Q , ytd i have been shouting tuh her luhs. hahas. had a chat with her. but my dorm and th whole block was noisy and so quite hard tuh hear her voice lahs. her voice so SOFT somemore. LOL. i changed rs with her tuh ROMANCE lerhs ytd. hahas. cool? hahas. yeahs. waiting for her tuh come out for her HL luhs. wanna bring her tuh movie. :) just me and her niahs. :D touching rite me? hahas. next wk she coming out liaos. hahas. miss her lehs. hahas. lets see if she can prove it tuh me that she wont hurt me like how th rest did, MAYBE i will give her and myself a chance? NOT SURE yet lahs. cos currently im still UNSTABLE. in a FUCKING DAMN CONFUSING STATE. "my heart is beating for 3..." smart ppl will noe what i mean by that sentence. hahas. NOTE : im not saying anyone stupid ahs :) yeahs.

as for my BIE, haish. i can only say that i miss her ALOT ALOT ALOT. damn much. really cant accpt th fact that she go back tuh admission. i think im PHYSICALLY attached and addicted tuh her lerhs bahs. i have 2 letters yet tuh pass tuh her. wait till she it out from sickbay lerhs then pass tuh her bahs. hehes. miss her lots lahs. just now saw her that time i managed tuh touch her stomach. actually wanna hold her hand derhs, but that stupid kanjiong spider susan down turn back and look at us. so have tuh geisiao geisiao abit lahs. hahas. wonder which dorm will she go. pls ahs, dont go back tuh anygel 4 mans. her RAHSIA there mahs. fuck shit so black luhs. yucks luhs. so ER XIN !

and now here i am. blogging. hahas. just now i hiong all my letters out lerhs. nv body check mahs. hahas. one whole stack. hahas. still got some more derhs. but i haven hiong out yet niahs. next week will be my last HL in SGH lerhs. im left with 12 more days tuh DISCHARGE liaos. happy is happy lahs, but im more STRESSED than HAPPY luhs. family things upside down, school thing like WTF, etc lahs. STRESSED mans. haish. im so SCARED tuh discharge luhs. =/ okays lahs. i guess i shall end here lerhs. shall update again soon. take care peeps. byes D:

SCREAMED at Saturday, July 18, 2009

Saturday, July 11, 2009

hellos. im here tuh update again lerhs. just came back from playing bball. lols. just now vivian tan came tuh find me then see me play bball. hahas. met her at ard 4 like that. hahas. after that she go off at 5plus luhs. then i continue tuh play bball till 10 luhs. hahas. damn tired mans. raining some more. lols. but my mom came tuh drive me back. lols. now my legs are aching lerhs. my center toe become purple colour lerhs. hahas. pain mans. but nvm , cos i love bball ! :) tmr gg back tuh that hell again lerhs. sianned. just now kak aini call me den i ask her abt my BIE. but she say my BIE return back tuh gals home lerhs. dont noe if i should trust her words mahs. staff always like tuh tell lies tuh gals derhs. wtf lahs. idk lahs. hopefully she can come back tuh sc2 lahs. i dont wanna stay in dorm without her :( may God bless her bahs. i miss her mans. haish. shall end here bahs. this is just a short post. cos nth much happen lahs. hahas. take care peeps. update again soon bahs. :D

SCREAMED at Saturday, July 11, 2009

hellos. im here tuh update again ! ytd went tuh MCYS building and attended th presentation there. hahas. so many ppl luhs. i invited my form teacher there too. i wan her tuh be proud of me :) well , th presentation and everything went on smoothly. hahas. saw eileen ang , sandy, sher , pearlyn , tracia , wawa , etc etc lahs. hahas. took pic with eileen ang and sher. hahas. happy tuh see them lahs. hahas. went back home after th event end at 9plus pm. hahas. my dad gave me a new phone. hahas. not my ideal phone but still usable lahs. then i spent th whole nite sending song and all. hahas. slept at 4 am. haas. then just wake up at 11 plus am luhs. hahas. ate porridge that my mom cooked. hehes. carrot porridge. hees:) maybe later gg tuh play bball bahhs. haish. just now morning received reply from duanyi saying that my BIE never go back, she absconded. wahs, so SAD lahs cans. haish. heartbroken. i want tuhh see her lahs. miss her so much. haish. even if she abscond also must at least call or msg me and tell me where is she or anything like that mahs. she dont noe how worried i am mehs? her hp from thurs till now still off. TOTALLY no way tuh contact her luhs. im so damn heartpain and worried ! **whoever happens tuh see her (NORDIANA) please help me tell her that EMERSON is looking for her desperately. ask her tuh contact EMERSON ASAP ! thanks loads mans. my BAOBEI is still slping bahs i guess. wahs , she have slept for 36 hours lerhs lehs and now she is still slping ! WTF ! she last week say that she this week will come and find me n play bball with me derhs. yet she now still slping? wapiang. arghhs. i gotta end here lerhs. yuan ask me tuh call her. okays lahs. take care peeps. shall update again soon bahs. cyas :)

Labels: im longing tuh see you once again.. BIE i miss you DX

SCREAMED at Saturday, July 11, 2009

Thursday, July 9, 2009

currently in th state of BIGBIG CONFUSIONS :(((

hellos. im here tuh update lerhs. today is thurs and im out, arent you guys surprised? hahas. tmr gg for th service learning finale at MCYS building mahs. hahas. thats why today can come out. hahas. just now came out at 6:50pm. then dad brought me tuh eat. but i dint eat. cos i had my dinner already. after that my dad drive me home luhs. guess what? i saw my BIE at my house downstair. wth. she supposingly tuh be at work derhs then she appear at my block? i went tuh call her and asked her for her num luhs. then she told me that she abscond. wth. heartpain siahs. haish. then tok tuh her for awhile then i go up and msg her luhs. she told me that she wanna go back tuh gals home lerhs. ask me wan tuh bring her back not. then i ask her tuh wait for me bath first. and she say ok. but after i finished bathing lerhs , then she ask me not tuh bring her back lerhs, her auntie will bring her back. so i say ok luhs. i cant say anything also mahs. then i went down tuh buy thing luhs. and by th time i go down , she is not around lerhs. wahs, DISAPPOINTED mans. :( haish. after that she called me. and she say tat tmr then she go back tuh gals home. she tok tuh me on th line halfway then she kup my phone. i called her back but her phone was off. :((( until now luhs. sad mans. haish. and so here i am, blogging luhs. haish. wonder why she always off her phone. then out of sudden will call me. really dont noe what is happening tuh her mans. arghhs. fuck it mans. i hate this feeling rite now. wonder what is she doing rite now. haish. nvm lahs. dont tok abt her lerhs lahs. today is me and my MITANG derhs anni. 10 months anni. just now tok tuh my BAOBEI on th phone. hees:) she is now working at SHY's place. hahas. miss her lahs. she mw slping lerhs. hahas. cfm cute derhs ahs? hahas. tmr gg sch lerhs. wahs, have tuh wake up early in th morning. sianned. after sch gonna go home bath lerhs then gonna go MCYS building lerhs. hees. looking forward tuh it mans. hahas. good thing for me. i and my bro derhs rs ok lerhs. hahas. he tok tuh me and so did i. hahas. ok lahs. i shall end here lerhs bahs. im still waiting for her tuh msg me. haish. miss her mans. gtg slp lerhs. tmr schling. take care peeps. shall update again soon. byes:)

SCREAMED at Thursday, July 09, 2009

Sunday, July 5, 2009

hellos. im here tuh update again lerhs. hahas. just now went tuh play bball luhs. played for 3 hrs of bball luhs. hahas. tired. but was playing in th rain. fucked up. so slippery. hahas. then after that i went home tuh bath. then went tuh eat dinner with family luhs. just now quarrelled with my bro. FUCKED up lahs. everything and anything goes wrong , im always th one kena one. then i say in general , everybody should cooperate mahs. then dont noe what happen , he say i want tuh "JI JIAO" with own family so on and so forth lahs. aiyahs this is family matter and i dont wish tuh elaborate further lahs. i just felt unfair , everytime , everything , anything not done or whatevery SHIT , im ALWAYS th one kena fuck , th one in wrong. even though i did my part liaos. its not just one two times niahs lehs. its EVERYTIME lehs. listen properly , EVERYTIME get it???!!! i can tahan but also got limit derhs mahs. so we debated luhs. and he is th one who raised voice and KP alot of vulgarities lahs. wahs listen tuh he KP until very DULAN mans. but i dint say anyting. cos i noe if i say somemore , sure will FIGHT derhs. by that time not only he HOT , i also will be very HOT mans. i also have my temper luhs. i have my character and th way i am. but i control myself. why? cos i dont wan tuh blow th matter up. fuck shit lahs. th more i say th more i DULAN mans. i was merely trying tuh stand up for myself and seek FAIRNESS for myself mahs. like that also wrong mehs? arghs fuck lahs. i cant be bothered mans. i also BUEY KIAM ENG lahs horhs. i wanna make everyone look up tuh me. i wanna be th most outstanding one among all my siblings. wo yao shi zui neng gan derhs. just wait and see niahs. i gonna work VERY HARD towards it mans. when i say i wanna do it , NOTHING can stop me mans. enuf of this quarrel thing bahs. tmr going back at 2pm. sianned. dont wanna go back lahs. so sian luhs. tmr not gg sch cos of youthday. shiok mans. take a break. hahas. then tues going for physiotherapy for my knee. so not gg sch also bahs. okays lahs. shall end here lerhs bahs. i now using lanshop derhs com. dont wanna use my bro's com. he ask me dont use derhs mahs. so dont use lahs. its ok derhs. i also dont mind not using. going home soon. after i go home , i bath then i think i will call my BAOBEI bahs. after that i gg slp lerhs. hahas. shall end here. wil update again soon. byes:)

SCREAMED at Sunday, July 05, 2009

hellos. gd morning. im here again. :) just had my late breakfast cum early lunch. hahas. well. today i dont tink im going anywhere bahs. feeling kinda tired lahs. maybe gg tuh play bball bahs. hahas. sianned lahs. my nose and my throat are driving me crazy mans. having slight flu and cough. wtf ! whole nite cannot slp well. wtf rite? lols. okays lahs. just a short post for now. hahas. missing HER now.. hmms.. hahas. looking forward tuh her msgs and calls. hahas. take care. shall update again soon bahhs. byes :D

SCREAMED at Sunday, July 05, 2009

Saturday, July 4, 2009

hellos everyone. im here tuh upadate again liaos. hahas. today was out in th morning as usual luhs. hahas. HAPPY :) dad brought me tuh eat breakfast. lols. then went home luhs. after that i went down tuh lakeside there tuh meet my BAOBEI luhs. waited for her at th mrt station alone for 1 hour lehs !! wahs , was bored tuh death mans. some more th weather is like.. oh wtf cans. then nvm, after met my BAOBEI and her frens , we went tuh bugis luhs. my BAOBEI wanted tuh buy her stuffs. wahs , she really bought ALOT of things mans. hahas. and i helped her carry those bags luhs. hees:) gentleman abit mahs. lols. we saw TERESA at bugis too. well, my BAOBEI toked tuh her for awhile then go lerhs luhs. i also never tok tuh her much lahs. i and teresa drifted ALOT lerhs. idk why also lahs. well, its ok derhs also. i dont mind not having her as my GIRLGIRL now though. as you see, ppl do change. so be it luhs. lols. we saw KELLY at bugis too. wahs , what a small world luhs. KELLY noe my BAOBEI derhs frens. lols. so some how they are linked. lols.then after shopping at bugis street, we went tuh KFC tuh visit LAOGAPOH DUANYI ! hahas. funny lahs she. hahas. then went tuh mac for a drink. hahas. everywhere is like so packed with ppl lahs cans. fucked up mans. hahas. after that we went tuh eat nasi lemak luhs. i dint eat though. was on diet rmb? lols. have tuh slim down. hees :D my BAOBEI wanted tuh feed me eat , but i dont wan. hahas. then slack awhile when seeing them eat, i went home lerhs. cos i have my curfew time mahs. dont wanna breach th timing. hahs. well, i reached home at 10. on th dot. hahas. during th outing with my BAOBEI and her frens, i managed tuh hold my BAOBEI's hands. hahas !! it was sweet though. but she was like SOOOO TALL cans ???!!! hahas. and im like... SOOOOOO MUCHHHHHHHH SHORTER than her lahs. hahas. =X so here i am , again, blogging. hahas. sianned. mon gg back lerhs. haish. shall end my post here lerhs bahs. take care peeps.

P.S. LOVER , today whole day no news from you. but you sent me an offline msg telling me that your prepay low. haish. just wan you tuh noe that i still care for you. take care. :)

im left with 26days tuh DISCHARGE !!! cant wait mans XD

SCREAMED at Saturday, July 04, 2009