hurts after hurts *

Thursday, February 25, 2010

so long since i last updated. hahahas. just gotta noe that Cass has gotten herself another bf name Johnathan on that day when she broke up with me and i was damned DISAPPOINTED. all th excuses that she has given me , " she is not ready tuh accept everything so fast " , " she answered me too fast lerhs " , " she cant say that she totally dont love me anymore " , etc. FUCK IT okays ! ALL EXCUSES. she want tuh leave me for Johnathan then just say only. dont need tuh give me all those Bloody excuses. i dont need it seriously. fancy her saying till like she is so damned innocent when her intention was tuh be with Johnathan thats why she wanna break up. my antenna is long and i noe whats happening all these days okays. save it , dont have tuh fool me anymore cos it wont work bitch. she broke all her promises one after one.

First , she say she wont like guys , even is she will , she will tell me , beforehand.
Yet , she like Johnathan , isnt Johnathan a guy too? fuck all she said alrights?!

Second , she say she wont be the one tuh say break or do shit tuh me.
And again , she DID !

Third , she say she will be faithful tuh me.
BUT SHE DID NOT !

she say she wont lie tuh me , but she DID. so wtf now. that day she told me that she gg tuh meet a friend at eunos and she said it was a gal , but i get tuh noe that she intended tuh meet JOHNATHAN okays. So now i noe , JOHNATHAN is a GIRL ! LMAO ! CRAPS ! she say she has NO ONE ELSE , then WHO IS JOHNATHAN ?! NO ONE as well??? really must thank her for all those shits and lies. fuck her until she die mans ! wahs , was damned mad at her mans. wan tuh go just say lahs , why must give me all those fucking excuses tuh cover up for herself siahs ! WO BU CHI ZHE YI TAO okays. OMG. I dint do anything siahs. nb. forget it bahs. i wont let myself turn back anymore. I WILL MOVE ON WITHOUT CASSANDRA TAN WAN CHENG ! of cos , i cant deny that it hurts , and till now it still does. but for what i noe , im gonna be strong ! and i will move on ! so aft i return her fucking jacket that is with me now , we are quits and im not gonna contact her lerhs. thats it. SHUANG KUAI yi dian. :D HAHAHAS ! okays lahs , dont tok abt her already. OMG , im so disappointed in myself. i didnt do well for my POA COMMON TEST ! D: 41/50 ! wth ! first time get this kinda fucked result luhs. and ENG , 23/35 , wth ! arghs ! im going crazy lerhs. how can i score this kinda marks ! haiyo. hope tuh do better next time ! yeahs gonna focus more lerhs , no more fooling lerhs ! for now , single lerhs , just gonna do whatever i like till i found someone who i can love again. yups , thats all. anw , gonna end my post here lerhs. take care everyone. tmr and Sat gotta work lehs , OMG. gotta run ! BYES :DDD

SCREAMED at Thursday, February 25, 2010

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Fountain of Wealth. Hehehe. nice rights? i noe.

SCREAMED at Sunday, February 21, 2010

ytd was jonas' bday and we went tuh drink at Thai Disco. went finding for pub that is not that strict find until very hard luhs. cos on that day 2 of us underaged. LOL. th girls there are so HOTTT ! WHOOOO ~ i love it. single lerhs mahs. LOL. drank Martel and were quite mabok. LOL. but Sher and Jonas were th worst ! hahahahas ! i still okay lahs , still can control myself. but one damn thing for sure is that , i was damned seh , however i still managed tuh control myself and take cab home myself alone. i walked also cannot balance lerhs , but i noe what is happening and what im doing. LOL. reached home at abt 2plus in th morning. then went tuh bath and K.O. my head and th whole body too heavy lerhs.

Today woke up at 1plus in th noon. and fucked ! th thing that i dread th most aft drinking ,, HANGOVER ! headache and whole body weak. NB ! so stayed at home th whole day. hehehes. gd boy right? LOL. of cos im good always. LOL.

19.02.10
thats when we fall apart and you let go. i tot you could be th one , but you just proved me wrong. i noe you dont feel secured with me , but i did everything that i can tuh show you that i really love you , all my efforts and everything i put in for you still not enough tuh show you that i really love you? for you , i dint do anything unfaithful behind your back , i dint hong , i just dint do anything wrong. so why must you let go? i noe we have been quarrelling these days , but i tot quarrels make a rs stronger? i held on tuh our rs no matter what happen so why cant you do th same. sighs. forget it. its over lerhs. i shall let it pass then. i wont hold you back. i wont breathe a word. as sad as i can be , as painful as i can feel , i shall move on. but i wanted you tuh noe that i have enjoyed th times i spent with you all these days. and as stubborn as you can be , as childish as you can be , as irritatin as you can be at times, as naughty as you can be , i still loved you. for you are someone who is of my type ; cute , English speaking , girls sch , your slang when you speak , its unique. you're simply th type for me. but just too bad , you came into my life late and you left too early. cos im not done with loving you yet.

SCREAMED at Sunday, February 21, 2010

Monday, February 15, 2010

GONG XI FA CAI!

hehehes. ytd 1st day of CNY , went tuh visit my grandmom and relatives. then went tuh Kbox with Sher , Maine , Aubrey , Cindy Soh , Jonas and my brothers. fucked up , thats all i can say. after that me and my brothers went home first. BORING ~ night time , went tuh find Anna at her house. then we watched horror movie. LOL. Indonesia derhs ghost movie. okays lahs , quite scary lahs. after that watch cartoon for awhile then we went tuh slp lerhs. slept at abt 2AM. whoos ~ tired mans. then this morning wake up at 9AM. Anna cook for maggie for me tuh eat lerhs then i wait for her tuh bath and prepare tuh work. she working at 12 mahs. then after that she go work and i home sweet home. LOL. so here i am , just finish bathing. LOL. later im going tuh my relative house tuh painian again ! :D hope tuh receive manymany hong bao ! :DDD take care everyone , and HAPPY CNY ! stay happy always !

SCREAMED at Monday, February 15, 2010

Friday, February 12, 2010

most recent pics. with my Romance and Dar ( Cassandra )

SCREAMED at Friday, February 12, 2010

wahs , SIANS ! valentines day is coming lerhs. tsktsk. but Cassandra wont be out. but there is FZ gathering. dont noe whether i can make it nots. cos have tuh go pai nian mahs. CNY 1st day lehs. sighs. Romance today msg me and ask me tuh go for th gathering. LOL. then in th end i quarrelled with her becos of her bloody fren ! irritating underage sucker. really pissed me off mans. no manners. mom never teach ! yucks. arghs i cant be bothered lahs. fuck shit. like it or not , i will still scold her that fren derhs. cos i have my own reasons and stand tuh do that. fuck lahs , she is just a pathetic 15 yrs old freak trying tuh climb over my head?! dream on! slap her face ahs , nb! ytd anna and yan break lerhs. and anna was very sad. although she act as if she is fine , i noe that shes not. T.T sighs. what can i say though. tmr Cassandra coming out lerhs. cant wait mans. missed her sooooo much. i just end sch not long. later gg tuh town watch movie with frens. hehehe. gotta run and prepare lerhs. take care everyone ! HAPPY CNY !

SCREAMED at Friday, February 12, 2010

Friday, February 5, 2010

BORED BORED BORED !

my birthday sucks alrights , just a family dinner and Clara my gan mei went tuh th dinner with me too:D hahaas. hope that she had her fill. then night , is my drinking time ! reached home at abt 4am. th next day , MC . LOL. as usual. LOL. received present from my teachers and classmates. most of th presents are just CHOCOLATES. hahas. but i appreciate them anw. thanks guys , for rmbring my bday. LOL. Anna gave me a T-shirt as my bday present. while Clara gave me a slice of Cocoa Mocha cake. thanks guys , really appreciate your effort. :D Bday , heng never kena sabo , cos i clever , never go down SR. if not , im DEAD for sure. LOL. th day before my bday kena a lil bit of sabo by Nikie. FUCKER. then i chase after her all th way till MRT stn. LOL. like kids right we all? LOL. well , my bday this year just sucks. all th way. th worst bday i ever have all my 18 yrs. FUCKED !

well , have been schling and doing hw after sch nowadays. of cos not forgetting tuh send Cassandra back tuh SGH too. wed , thurs and fri , i woke up early in th morning at 4am and went tuh SGH outside there meet Cassandra then send her tuh sch. LOL. ppl may say that im TOUCHING. HAHAS. BHB , i noe. LOL. but its true also ok. i still prepare breakfast for her somemore arghs. so sweet of me rights? actually i prepare breakfast for KQ also derhs on that day, but , she went off early that day so dint have th chance tuh give it tuh her. sighs. nvm bahs. now , i just ended sch , waiting for Cassandra at Eunos mrt derhs nearby derhs lanshop. i guess she will end sch soon. Sian , this morning again i went tuh meet her at outside SGH but when i reach , she left lerhs. but i saw ahJoi so fagged with her awhile luhs. then went tuh sch lerhs luhs. wahs , this Cassandra is so long mans. gtg. take care everybody! HAPPY CNY IN ADVANCE ! :D

SCREAMED at Friday, February 05, 2010